Saturday, December 29, 2012

Brain dump.....(stolen from NSM)

My goodest (I'll explain that) friend over at Non-Stop Mom has used the title brain dump for a blog post or two, and so I figured that I would steal it.  The goodest thing comes from me finding the term "Best Friend" a bit childish sometimes.  I have multiple friends that would fall into the best friend category (going based on what it meant to me in high school) and I feel like titling them in that manner wouldn't do any of them justice, so I figure goodest, even though it's not really a word, works.

I've been having a more than difficult time here lately.  I don't know if it's post partum depression setting in (even though my boy is 4 1/2 months old) or if it's just my hormones being completely jacked from the hysterectomy.  I'm moody, I'm depressed, I am constantly mad at Hubby, and I feel unwelcome in my own home.  I let things go (Oh Em Gee you should see the piles upon piles of laundry) and I just frankly don't care.  I put on this front, that everything is fine and dandy, and that things couldn't be better, yada yada yada, when in fact, I feel like things are coming apart at the seams.  We're behind on bills, I need a job, money only goes so far, and I just don't know what the fark we're going to do.

And maybe that's the #1 issue.....I NEED a job.  I've been on 4 interviews in the last several weeks, and have gotten turned away by ALL of them.  The one I even got a 2nd interview, and was still passed over for someone else.  I know I would be a good employee for someone if they would just give me a freakin chance.  I can't even get someone to let me in the door.  And it's frustrating.  And a bit embarrassing, truth be told.  I have never had so much trouble getting a stinking job.  I've always been able to find a job and change jobs fairly easily.  And maybe that's part of the reason that people are turning me away.  The longest job that I've had was the 2 years that I worked for Zales, and the 2 years that I worked for Comcast.  That's been it.  Nothing longer.  I WANT to stay at a job long term.  I want to fidn the place I can retire from.  I NEED a job so desperately bad, but having one vehicle is making it very difficult to find something, and having 2 kids is making it even mroe difficult, because the cost of day care is stupid.

I don't even feel like I can vent about anything.  I suppose I'm just going to go to bed, and then I don't have to even think about anything either.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Holy jeebus......

It must be a Christmas miracle......2 posts in one week! :P

This holiday has snuck up on me much quicker than I would have liked to admit.  It's insane to me how fast it got here, and how unprepared I feel for it.  All my shopping is done, got it all done last week, but I still just don't feel ready.

I have all the gifts to wrap yet.  I have some baking/cooking to do, and a big chunk of my family isn't going to be here. *sigh*

My brother JA and sister in law D are separated.  She went on vacation to IL this summer, and decided to not come back.  She took my nephews, and has been pretty well not talking to anyone.  I have my opinions about it, which I will keep to myself, because they are NOT very nice, and I don't want to be super bitch this close to Christmas.  So, anyway, since they are in IL, my brother is driving up there to see them....and I'm glad that he is, because he needs to be with his boys for Christmas.  I just wish that they were HERE.  But that's just not going to happen.

Hubby & I are planning a trip to IL in the spring to visit, since it will be almost 2 years since we've been back up there.  That seems insane to me, because it really doesn't feel like it's been that long.  Anyhoo, when we go up there, I'm not sure that we will go and see my nephews.  D was supposed to be one of my best friends, and she just completely cut me out of her and my nephews' lives, so I just don't know that I want to have anything to do with her at all.  And if that means that I don't get to see my nephews, then so be it.  I am hurt and sad and a whole miriad of emotions, and at this point in time, I don't want to see her.  So, unless something changes between now and then, we likely won't see the boys when we go up either.

So, for that reason (the separation that is) this holiday season has been really tough for me.  I'm sure it's been even worse for my brother, and I know it's been hard on my mom too.  Then knowing that this is the last Christmas that we'll have JM & T & the baby here for a few years is hard too.  But, we're going to get some good pics of the kids over the course of the next few days, and hopefully after income taxes, we'll get some family pics done, and it'll all be good.

I suppose since I have to be up early to get ready for church that I should get to bed.  C is going to be baby Jesus for the Christmas program tomorrow, and we're having breakfast at church beforehand.  I hope he does okay.  He should.....I just need to make sure and feed him before the service, and maybe he will just sleep through 

Anyway, I will probably not be back on before Christmas Day, so I just want to say Merry Christmas to all you beautiful followers.  I hope Santa is good to each and every one of you, and may God's light shine on you during this wonderful time of year. <3

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Terrible, horrible, no good, very bad............

At keeping up with posting on my blog.  *sigh* I just feel so overwhelmed 99% of the time that I just don't think about writing here.  And I totally should, because this would be a fantastic place for me to get out all my frustrations.

Life always seems to get in the way of everything for me these days.  I lose touch with friends, I don't write in my blog, I just can't seem to get anything under control.

The kids are getting big.  C turned 4 months old last week already, and A is 20 months.  Hard to believe that my miracle baby is going to be 2 in March. And C is getting SO's crazy.  I am so blessed to have my babies.

So I mentioned in my last post that I was going to have a partial hysterectomy.  I did, and things went well.  I've had some struggles with hormones, and my moods swing from good to bad to worse in minutes, but I don't regret it at all.  The recovery process was long and frustrating, and I didn't think I was ever going to feel better or want to have sex again, but slowly things are attempting to get back to normal.  I really wish I would have done a bit more research on what to expect after a hysterectomy, because I was totally NOT prepared for the drastic shift in my emotions.  I felt like a nut job, and still do some of the time.  I find myself being really short tempered, and I lose my temper very quickly with Hubby.  And most of the time, he's not really done anything to tick me off, but I'm mad.  It's annoying.  Sex is not high on my radar these days either.  That is getting better, but there for a while, I couldn't stand him touching me.  That is definitely better, but my sex drive is just in the toilet.  It's annoying to say the least, and I'm sure it makes him feel like crap too.

Christmas is upon us, and I have completed my shopping.....kind of.  I still need to get something for Hubby's brother and sister in law, but I'm going to have to order it online and have it sent to them, because I can't find what I want here, and I'm running out of time.  I hate waiting until the last stinking minute, and it seems like that's what I always end up doing.  I have swore to myself that next year (if there is know, the world is supposed to end this week) I am going to have ALL my Christmas shopping DONE by Thanksgiving weekend.  I am NOT going to do this crap again.  But I say that every year, and every year I'm doing most if not all my shopping the week before Christmas when all the crazies are out.  This is my favorite time of year, but holy cow....People really get stupid crazy around Christmas.  I can't tell you the number of times that I got bumped into, cursed at, and pushed while walking through the mall.  Yes, I have a double stroller.  The thing is as big as a tank, so HOW does someone NOT see it?  If you walk into me, guess what, that's not MY fault.  Watch where you are walking.  I say excuse me if I need to.  Do not give me a dirty look because you are blocking the aisle while talking all ghetto on your phone.  I said EXCUSE ME! *sigh*

Now that I've ranted about that.......................I'm searching hard core for a job.  It's not something that I want to have to do, but I really don't have much of a choice.  I have to be able to take care of my kids, and let's just be honest, that's REALLY difficult to do most of the time with only one income.  We're doing okay, but definitely could be doing better.  I have had several interviews, and I know that I didn't get 2 of the jobs. :( It made me sad, because I felt like they both went really well, but *shrug* What do ya do?  I had another interview on Friday, and it went pretty good too.  I'm going to call the lady I interviewed with tomorrow, just to check in and see if they are anywhere near making a decision.  I really think I would like working at this job, because there is plenty of room for advancement, and some pretty awesome opportunities available with it.  I can only hope and pray that this is the job for me, and that this is God's plan for my life.  We need the money, and we would only have to put the kids in daycare for a couple hours a day, which would be ideal.

My brother and sister in law had a baby in October, and so I have another new nephew.  This is NOT the brother and sister in law that were having issues....they are over, and she's not talking to me anymore, so I'm done.  JM & T live in San Antonio, and JM Jr was born October 26th, so he's 2 1/2 months younger than C.  And SUPER adorable.  We found out a couple weeks ago that JM, T & JM Jr are moving to JAPAN in April-ish.  Yeah, I said Japan.  JM is in the Air Force, and where they tell him to go is where he goes.  I'm sad, but I know that it's a fantastic opportunity for them, and they are going to get to see some pretty amazing stuff, and will hopefully send some pretty amazing pictures. ;)

Well, I suppose this is long winded enough....I need to get some homework done, because I need to get to bed soon.  I'm fighting a stupid sinus infection, and need to get better so that I can love on my nephew this coming week while they are here for Christmas.

I promise I am going to try and be better about keeping this up.....I need to just work it into my daily routine.  We'll see if that happens. :P

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Just a quickie...........

I'm flat out exhausted, so this is going to be uber short tonight.  Though it's not like I've been especially long winded lately, seeing as how I can't seem to remember to write a post 99% of the time in the first place...............

Anyway.....things are going really well with Lil Man.  He's getting big and is definitely nursing like a champ.  I'm having a MUCH easier time with him than I did Lil Lady....which is nice.  I think a lot of it is that I am more comfortable nursing this time around, and I frankly don't care what other people think.  I was so self conscious when I had Lil Lady that if we were out anywhere, even at Hubby's brother's house, I would give her a bottle of formula long before I would even attempt to nurse her.  Lil Man has only had about 8 oz of formula since birth, and most of that was additional supplementation right after birth to help with his jaundice.

I am SO lucky that I have been able to stay home with my kids so far, but I am going to HAVE to get a job.  Trying to live on one income is almost impossible with 2 kids.....I don't know how single parents do it.  I really don't.  Anyway....

Hubby & I decided that we don't want anymore kids.  We've always said that we only wanted 2, and since we have our 2, we're done.  My monthly cycles have always been awful, with the cramping, etc, and after having Lil Lady, they just got worse.  After talking to my OB, we've decided that the best course of action is for me to have a partial hysterectomy.  I had to wait for approval from my insurance company, and we finally got that, so I'm scheduled for surgery next Friday, the 28th.  I am all the sudden REALLY nervous about it.  I know that it's what I want, because I do not want to have to deal with the awful periods that I've had for more than 1/2 my life anymore.  I'm not worried about wanting more kids eventually, because like I said, Hubby & I only ever wanted 2 kids.  I think it's just because I have a brand new baby at home, and since the hospital is 45 minutes away, Hubby isn't going to be able to bring the kids up to see me every day.  I am worried that my milk supply will dwindle since I won't be able to breast feed Lil Man for 3 days.  I think that the other part of it is that I figured it would be done through laproscopy, and it's not going to be.  I will have about a 5-6 inch incision.  I won't be able to lift more than 10 pounds for 4 weeks....which means that I will have to have my parents' help with Lil Lady, getting her up from her nap and putting her to bed at night.  I'm not real happy about that either.  She'll do fine, just like she did when I was on bedrest, but I hate putting my parents out like that.

Alright, I suppose this is it for tonight.  I'm pooped.  I think I'm going to pick up my boy, nurse him and head to bed.  After I take a hot shower that is. :)

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again! :)

Friday, September 14, 2012

Another month gone by....

And I'm still working on trying to get a schedule down between Lil Man and Lil Lady. *sigh* It's definitely tough going from one to two....but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the entire world. :)

I have been SO tired, and haven't been sleeping well at night because Lil Man seems to still have his nights and days mixed up.  He's up 3/4 of the night, and then he'll sleep 3/4 of the day.  I'm about to lose my mind, because it's not like I can nap during the day when he does, because I still have Lil Lady to take care of.  Now if they are both sleeping (like they both are now) then I will sometimes lay back in the recliner and catch a couple z's.  But I also realize that when they are both sleeping is really the ONLY time I have to get house work and such done.  I really need to figure out some better time management or something, because since Hubby is the only one working, I really feel like I should be the one to keep the house up.  It's just tough to find that least for me.  I've gotten more accomplished the last couple days than I have in the last month since Lil Man was born, and I'm sure that's because when he does sleep at night, he's sleeping for about 5 hours....which is AMAZING.  He doesn't sleep that long all the time, but he has been here lately, so I'm hoping that he's on a good trend of continuing it....though I better knock on wood, because the last time I said that, he stopped sleeping at night

I have been thinking a lot lately about how lucky I really am.  I have a wonderful husband, who works SO hard to provide for his family.  I have not had to go back to work, and hopefully if I do have to go back, it will only be part time.  It's nice knowing that I can stay home with the kids and take care of them, and not have to work a 40 hour week where I would most definitely be miserable.  Being a mom has been the greatest gift that I ever could have been given.

If you would have told me 5 years ago that I would be a mom to 2 beautiful kids, I would not have believed you.  We tried SO hard to get pregnant, and had so many disappointments, and it was such a dark difficult time in my  life.......I was ready to give up.  I was ready to throw in the towel, and be happy being a foster mom and nothing more.  I prayed many a night to be able to carry a child and have a baby of my own, and here I am, with 2 beautiful bundles of absolute joy.  I look at their faces and I'm filled with so much happiness and's absolutely the most amazing thing ever.  I couldn't imagine being happier than I am right now.

Though things with the kids have been great, there's been a bit of sadness around here.  My SIL as I mentioned before, I think, has moved out of state with my nephews, leaving my brother.  Things have been tough for them for the last couple years, and things finally came to a head and she took off with them.  I miss them like crazy...not  just my nephews, but my SIL too.  She came back down here last week with the boys to get some of their stuff, and so they got to see Lil Man for the first time.  We did get a picture of all 4 kids together, and in it my nephews and Lil Lady are ALL smiling and looking at the camera!! :) I was SO happy.  It's an awesome pic....I posted it on my personal Facebook page, and will get it up on 1st Time Mama after I get this blog posted.  I hope that if this is what she really wants that things work out for her.....but I miss her and wish that her and the boys would just come home. :(

Anyway....I suppose this is it for now...I'm going to shut my eyes and try to get a little nap in before the kids wake up and Mom gets here.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Monday, August 27, 2012

My boy's birth story....

I have been trying to get a routine down between Lil Man & Lil Lady and haven't taken the time to actually sit down and write out his birth story. It's amazing finally having him here...though in reality, this pregnancy went by really quickly.

I'll start with my doctor's appointment on Friday the 10th. The doctor came in and asked how I was and I said, "ready to have this baby." He laughed, checked me, looked Lil Man over real quick, estimated him at about 8 pounds. He asked if they had scheduled me for an induction yet, since Lil Man was getting so big, and I said no. The nurse called the hospital and asked them when the first available time for a straight pit (pitocin) induction was, and it was Sunday at 5 am. I was shocked. Especially that they would do it on a Sunday. I was having contractions about every 20 minutes or so, but they weren't very strong. We did a lot of walking the rest of Friday and into Saturday, hoping that I would just go on my own.

I hardly slept Saturday night, because I was just so ready for my boy to be here. We got up and went to the hospital and got there right at 5. Got upstairs to L&D, got into our room, and got the process started. They got my IV in, got me all hooked up, and of course, I had to pee. LOL. At this point, the contractions were still mild, but coming about every 5 minutes. They started the pitocin, and of course the contractions picked up in intensity. Still they were only about every 3-4 minutes, and they weren't completely unbearable. At about 10:30 the intensity picked up even more. I was debating the epidural, I thought maybe I would be able to handle it, because I did, though unwillingly, with Lil Lady. Around 11:00 or so, the anestesiologist came in and put in the epidural, because I was just too uncomfortable, and I really wanted to be able to enjoy delivery. Hubby and my parents went to the cafeteria to get lunch about noon, because he was hungry and Lil Lady was getting fussy. I texted him about 12:30 that the dr had come in, I was at a 5, 100% thinned, and my water had broke so it wouldn't be too much longer. The nurse came in about 40 or so minutes later and I was at a 7, then about 40 minutes later again, I was a 9. They had me try and push, and I needed to wait a little bit longer, because the cervix was folding over and keeping him in there, so they needed it the rest of the way out of the way.

Right about 3pm, the doctor came back in and got me up in the stirrups (which was interesting since I couldn't move my and told me to be ready to push. He got all prepped, and with Hubby & my mom by my side, I started pushing. I pushed 4 times and he was born. The really cool thing was that I felt him come down into the birth canal, and I felt him come out, but there was no pain at all. It was just the pressure. I didn't have that with Lil Lady. It was absolutely amazing. They put him right on my chest, before they even really wiped him off. He was perfect. Perfectly pink, perfect apgar, head full of dark hair. I cried when my mom said that he had a lot of hair, Hubby had tears in his eyes, so did my mom. They took him over to the warmer, cleaned him up, gave him a bath, right there in the room. That was really nice, because the hospital in IL didn't to that with Lil Lady...they took her to the nursery. I had a 2nd degree tear, likely in the same place as the one with Lil Lady, and a couple 1st degree tears. They got me all stitched up and comfy in the bed, then they brought Lil Man to me so that I could breast feed him. He was barely an hour old at that point. He latched on with no issues, and has been a terrific nurser. Overall it was an amazing experience. My mom getting to be there was just awesome. We both cried several times, and it meant so much to me that she was there. It was something I didn't realize would mean so much. It made the experience just that much better.

He was a bit jaundice, and has had to be poked 3 days in a row.  But, the doctor said  that we didn't need to come back unless he started to look worse, and he's actually looking better to me, so....I'm good with that. We go back for his 2 week checkup. He is SUCH a good baby...he really doesn't cry that much, though he does NOT like having his diaper changed. LOL. Neither did Lil Lady though, I don't think. He's just awesome, and so soft, and I just can't get enough of him.

Lil Lady still isn't real sure about him. She doesn't quite get the "you need to be gentle" thing. She mimics me when I pat him on the butt though, which is super cute, and she LOVES giving him kisses. I noticed the other night though that she really misses me. She kept crawling up in my lap and trying to move Lil Man off of me. So, I gave him to Hubby, and snuggled her for a bit and gave her a bath. And holy cow....I knew she was getting big, but she seems SO enormous now! She's such a big baby is growing up!  When you ask her where is her baby, she points to Lil Man and says baby. It's super cute. She's getting used to him, but does NOT like when my mom holds him AT ALL. At the hospital, she threw the biggest fit when my mom held him...the nurses thought something was She doesn't like sharing her

It's definitely different going from 1 to 2, but we're getting the hang of it. And Lil Man being such a good baby definitely helps. 

I look back over the last 5 years, and it absolutely amazes me how blessed I am.  We tried for 3 1/2 years to have Lil Lady, and now we have our miracle boy, and it's just completely awesome.  If you would have told me 5 years ago that in 5 years I would have 2 kids and be living the life I'd always dreamed of, I would have thought you were nuts.....yet here I am...2 beautiful babies, an amazing husband who supports me like I never would have imagined, and close to's perfect.

I love my life, and honestly couldn't ask for more.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Heavy heart...........

I'm not going to say a whole lot tonight, because I'm still trying to wrap my brain around everything that's gone on today.

My brother & sister in law are likely heading toward divorce. :( Things have been rocky between them at best the last couple of years and it's just not been good.  My youngest nephew had an accident while my SIL and nephews have been in IL this summer, and my brother pretty well told my SIL that she's a horrible mother because it happened. *sigh* There's SO much more to the story, but I just don't have the energy to get into it all tonight.

I'm devastated.  My SIL was my maid of honor, she's one of my best friends, and I've REALLY enjoyed having her at my disposal since we moved down here.  I'm sad that I won't have her here when Lil Man is born, I'm sad that I won't get to see my nephews whenever I want, I'm sad that this is all happening to them.  It's just a sad situation.

So, please, keep my brother, SIL & nephews in your prayers as they go through this transition and decide what is best for their family.

I'm going to just close it out for tonight with that.....I don't have the umph to do anymore.  I'm going to get a shower and head to bed, and hope my brain is a bit more clear tomorrow.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Olympics Opening Ceremonies, sleepiness, and being uncomfortable.......

That pretty well sums up my night.  I'm exhausted.  I'm REALLY tired of being pregnant.  This boy could be born at any time, and I would be completely okay with it.  Hopefully not too much longer.

We recorded the opening ceremonies for the Olympic games, and I have to say, after Beijing, it was a bit of a disappointment. :( Can't expect that it would top Beijing, but it would have been nice if it'd come close.  I LOVE the Summer Olympics.  I love the Olympics period, but the Summer Games are my favorite by far.  I'm really excited to see how it goes for the U.S.

I don't really have a whole lot else to say tonight, so I suppose this'll be about it.  I need to take my uncomfortable pregnant self to bed, and try to sleep if I have any hope of getting anything accomplished tomorrow.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Monday, July 23, 2012


So, I completely suck at this blogging thing.  I really need to get better about it, especially since I am on the computer for a while after Lil Lady goes to bed at night, but I just tend to forget about it. :(

A quick update on me.....went to the OB on Thursday, and he cleared me from bed rest, said I could resume ALL normal activities (this made Hubby VERY and we're on the path to evicting Lil Man.  I'm SO ready for him to be OUT.  I'm guessing probably another week to week & a half.  We'll just have to see.  I'm 36 weeks now, so anytime would be fine.  Doctor said that if I were to go into labor at any time, he'd be okay with it, so that's where we're at.

The subject came up about what we wanted to do for birth control, and since Hubby & I have decided that 2 is our limit, the option we feel would work best is for me to have my tubes tied.  I told the OB that I would prefer that he just take it out, and he commented that I was too young.  So then the conversation turned to how awful my periods are and always have been, the endo, and how miserable being a woman basically makes me.  So, he told us to REALLY discuss it, and if we decided that a partial hysterectomy is the direction that we wanted to go, then he would submit the information to the insurance and we would go from there.  In researching things, because this isn't a choice I am going to make lightly, I've come up with some more questions, so when I go back on Thursday of this next week, I'm going to ask those questions, and depending on the answers, hopefully make my decision.  I am really leaning toward having it done, because like I said, my periods are and always have been completely awful.  They were even worse after having Lil Lady, and I frankly do not want to go through the next 20 or so years of my life dealing with it.  I've already dealt with it for more than 1/2 my life, I think that's long enough.

Someone asked me about why I would want to do it, because what if, God forbid, something happen to one or both of my kids...wouldn't I want the chance to have another baby?  And my answer to that is....I don't know.  I'm 33 going on 34, and I always said that I would not have a biological child after 35.  There are more risks after 35, the pregnancy can be harder on the mother, etc.  My pregnancies, while not completely awful, have not been the easiest, especially emotionally, so I don't think I would want to put myself or Hubby through that again.  There are other ways we could have another child, should the need arise, and I would much rather pursue those than put myself through a difficult or risky pregnancy.  Being a mother is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I wouldn't trade my kiddos for anything in the entire world. I would be absolutely devastated if something happened to one or both of them, and the question of whether or not I would want to have another wouldn't factor in for a LONG time, I wouldn't think.  It is a very personal decision, and not one that I'm entering into lightly.  I am doing a lot of research, talking to my most trusted friends, and asking the uber important questions to the doctor that I have come to completely trust, which is something I didn't think I would do after moving away from the doctor that delivered Lil Lady.

A partial hysterectomy would leave my ovaries, so I wouldn't go into early menopause, necessarily.  There is still a possibility that it could happen.....but it could happen even if I had my uterus, so...that's not really a factor for me.  Like I said, there are some things that I want to discuss with my doctor, and once those questions are answered, I will make my decision.

So, anyway, there's my update.  Now I think I'm going to go chew on some Tums, because I have heartburn, yet again, and I am close to being ready to head to bed.  I'm pooped.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again. :)

Friday, July 13, 2012

Long but decent day....

Today was definitely a long day.  Lil Lady didn't sleep well last night, which equates to ME not sleeping well last night.  She was up pretty early this morning, and then her nap was interrupted by a stinking thunderstorm that scared the crap out of me! The cat was hiding pretty well all day long as well.  It seemed like as soon as it stopped raining, it would start again 5 minutes later.  At one point we had a lake on the side of our  It went down, but there for a while I was really worried that it was just going to keep getting higher.

Lil Lady is getting some new teeth in, so she's been pretty miserable, and now on top of it, I think she's getting a cold. :(  There was another little one at the church meeting on Wednesday, and apparently she had a cold, and I think she gave it to Lil Lady. :(  She's been up several times since going to bed already, and she's been running a little bit of a fever.  I gave her some tylenol and snuggled her for a little bit, and laid her back down, and she seemed okay....but she's been crying off and on since then.  I'm hoping that she'll sleep through the night, but I'm not going to count on it.  So, I have a feeling that it's going to be a long day tomorrow too.

My dad has been gone to Salt Lake City for work all this past week, and he's coming home tomorrow, so we're going to have my parents over for dinner.  Lil Lady has MISSED her Grandad. <3  She's going to be SO excited to see him when he gets here.  We have to go do some grocery shopping tomorrow, and I am trying to get a list together, and not having much luck.....I just can't seem to wrap my brain around it.  I really would love to just go to bed, but Hubby isn't home from work yet, and I don't feel like I got to spend a whole lot of time with him earlier today, so I'm looking forward to getting to have him here when he gets home.  We're going to have dinner, and then get to bed so we can get up early to get shopping done and get the house picked up, etc before my parents get here tomorrow.

We're going to have pizza for dinner tonight.  It's the only thing that sounded good to me earlier.  So, Hubby is going to stop at the store on his way home (Gotta love 24 hr Walmart) and grab a couple pizzas and some soda.  I'm looking forward to it, because it just sounds good.

I suppose this is about it for tonight.....I'm wiped out, and looking at the computer screen is making it worse. I'm hoping that Lil Lady sleeps through the rest of the night, because I just don't know that I have the umph to be up with her 1/2 the night.....and I know Hubby doesn't after working all day.  We'll have to see what happens.

So, stay safe and be blessed my friends...until we meet again.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Long day....

Today felt like a really long day even though in actuality it wasn't.  The bug guy came and sprayed this morning, waking us all up when they knocked on the door.  That wasn't fun.  Lil lady took an early nap because of it, so I took advantage and took a nap myself.  It was REALLY nice...I actually got comfortable in bed for the first time in I can't tell you how long.  When Lil Lady woke up, I was really sad, because I was comfy and wasn't ready to get up yet! :P  I'm going to be heading to bed REALLY soon, because I am just wiped out.

The church that we belong to has been in between pastors, and finally may have picked a new pastor, so we had a meeting tonight to determine if we as a church were going to extend an offer to her.  She answered questions and told us a bit about herself and I REALLY like her.  I think she's going to bring a fantastic new view to the church, and she will bring a younger perspective as well.  We voted to yes, extend an offer, so now it's just waiting to see if she's going to accept it.

Well, Hubby just brought me a root beer float, so I'm going to finish that and go to bed....I'm pooped.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I can't think of something good to title this......

So, I'm choosing to NOT have a title.  Uh oh....better call the blog police! :P LOL.  It's been a LONG day....I'm so tired of not sleeping well....But that's not going to change until this baby is out of my belly and about 6 months old.  At least once he's out of my belly though I can lay a bit more comfortably on the bed.  My nails are finally starting to grow a bit on their that the pregnancy is almost  But hey, I'll take it however I can get it!

I am 34 weeks now, which is fantastic.  Lil Man is moving up a storm ALL the time, especially when I'm trying to sleep or relax. :) He gets the hiccups pretty often, just like Lil Lady used to, which makes me laugh. Also like Lil Lady used to, he kicks Hubby all the time when we're in's really funny.  I'll snuggle up next to Hubby, and Lil Man just goes insane kicking him.  It's fantastic.

I'm looking forward to meeting him, and finally having him HERE.  Though I really can't complain, because this pregnancy has gone by SO fast.....and I'm sure that the main reason for that is that I didn't find out until 16 weeks....that's almost 1/2 way through....I got to skip the whole scary first trimester.

My parents have bought so much for him here the last few weeks since they've been home, it's been fantastic.  Mom got a bassinet for him, that once he outgrows it we will give back to her and a bunch of clothes.  I am not worried about him being naked, that's for sure. <3  And a lot of the outfits that she bought are just too cute for words.  I'm really looking forward to getting him here, and having my family complete.

I did have a doctor's appt last Thursday.  I'm dilated to a 1, but still only 25% effaced, so not a whole lot of progress.  I don't have to get anymore shots (Thank the Lord...those things SUCKED) and I kind of sorta took myself off bed rest.  I just can't stand laying around doing absolutely NOTHING anymore.  If Hubby is home, I have him lift Lil Lady and such, but once he goes to work, I'm on my own.  I did okay today....she plays with her toys, and getting her into her high chair was kind of tough, but we'll make due.  I just can't stand having everyone else take care of drives me batty.  I have a bit of a hard time getting around, so it's not like I'm back to doing full fledged everything, because I simply can't do it.  I can't even hardly roll over in bed, so going back to full fledged everything just would NOT  I'm very lucky that Hubby is so awesome, because he still does a lot around here making sure that things run smoothly.  Which, if it wasn't for him, none of us would have clean clothes, and the house would look like bums lived in it.

Well, I suppose this is it for tonight.  It's starting to rain, and I'm pooped, so I'm going to try and get some sleep.  Though, I know it's almost pointless, but I've gotta at least try.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Quick little update...

I just realized that it's been like a week or something since I posted an update.  Not much to update really.  Still on bed rest.  Still getting shots in the ass to prevent contractions.  Still ready for this pregnancy to be over.  I feel a bit more prepared to have him arrive though, so that's a good thing.  He's got clothes, a couple blankets, and a bed to sleep in (once we get it from my mom's house.....the play pen/bassinet that we had for Lil Lady won't fit in our room so we're using the one my mom works).  I'm still a bit nervous about having a preemie, but I'm 33 weeks now, will be 34 come Saturday, and 6 weeks early isn't so bad.  I have another doctor's appt on Thursday, and they will check and see if I've dilated anymore then.  I'm hoping that I have, otherwise I'm likely to cry that the contractions I've been having haven't done anything.....the meds I'm taking are supposed to stop them, and the meds don't stop crap.  The shots help for the first day or so, and that's it.  It really just seems kind of pointless, at this point, because I know that even though he'd be early and small, he'd be fine.  I am just definitely ready to be done being pregnant. *sigh* And I hate feeling that way.....I should be thankful that I'm able to have a baby...especially after everything we went through to get Lil Lady here, and knowing all the people I do that have been unable to have the baby of their's hard for me to feel the way that I do. :( But, I can't help it.  Being pregnant this time has been absolutely miserable for me.  The ONLY thing that I've enjoyed about it is feeling Lil Man move.  Being on bed rest has really taken the majority of the joy of pregnancy out of it for me.  I suppose this is going to be it for tonight......I'm tired, even though I do nothing but lay around all freaking day.  I need to get into a more comfortable position, and the couch just isn't cutting it.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Another day down...

And only 10 more weeks to  Really, I'm hoping to keep Lil Man in there for at least 4 more weeks.  We'll just have to see what happens.

I got my second injection today.  It HURT.  I took a hot shower after I got home though, and let the water run over the injection site for a bit, and that seemed to help.  Now it's just a waiting game.  The contractions seem to be getting a little bit better, but they still come and go.  Nothing super painful, just annoying more than anything.  I keep crossing my fingers that they will just stop, and we won't have a preemie, but I just don't foresee that happening.

My sister in law, God love her, came over again today to be with me this afternoon to help take care of Lil Lady.  She's such an amazing help to me.  I can never fully tell her how much I appreciate her for all she's done, and continues to do to help me out.  My youngest nephew drove me bat shit crazy today, but that's par for the course with him.  He doesn't think he has to listen to anything that anyone tells him to do.  It really almost drove me over the edge today.  But, I just have to learn to cope/deal, because I can't not have her help, is what it is.  Even if I wanted to beat him within an inch of his life  It's a small price to pay to have the help, so....I'll deal.

I suppose I should probably try and get some rest.....I haven't felt good the last couple days, and I haven't been sleeping well, either.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Oye ve...

That pretty well sums it up. *sigh* I have entered into the insomnia phase of this pregnancy, which I had honestly hoped to avoid.  But, I really shouldn't be surprised at all, because I could just kind of tell that it was coming.  Had a doctor's appointment today, that didn't go very well. :(

I got to see my Lil Man, which was awesome, he's about 3 pounds and is measuring about 4 or 5 days ahead, which is good.  What was not good however, is that because of the contractions that I've been having, I'm about a finger tip dilated.  On Memorial Day, I went back into the hospital, because I'd lost some of my mucus plug.  At that point my cervix was still closed.  So they opted to check me today, and found that I was dilated. :( So, it's STRICT bedrest, only getting up to pee and go to the doctor.  I got a steroid injection in my butt (which HURT) and I have to go back for another dose tomorrow.  The steroids will help strengthen Lil Man's lungs in case he does come early....which I am fairly confident that he will.  After tomorrow, I don't go back to the doctor until next week.  At that point, they will re-evaluate, and I have a sneaky feeling that they are going to put my hiney in the hospital. Which will suck.  Especially since I won't handle not seeing Ava every day very well.  And, on top of that, the hospital is 45 minutes away, so the likelyhood of me having visitors at all is very slim.  It will be very lonely, so I'm praying that doesn't happen, because I just won't handle it well.  I will do whatever I have to do to ensure my son's health, but I just really hope that at home bedrest does the trick.

I'm hoping and praying for at least another month.  I can handle having a 6 week preemie.  Anything more than that, and I don't know that I could handle it very well.  I am sure I would do whatever I had to do in order to get through it, but it would be really hard.  Hubby was 6 weeks early, my brothers were 6 weeks early, my best friend's oldest son was 6 weeks I know without a shadow of a doubt that Lil Man would be okay.  Anything earlier than that, and it gets into scary territory.  Though, another friend of mine's lil guy was born at 31 weeks 5 days and is healthy as can be now.  He was even only on oxygen for 1 that's a point. :P

Having any preemie, regardless of how early, is definitely scary.  Hopefully the steroids will strengthen him so that if he is born soon, he'll be strong enough to be okay.

I did find out that the pediatrician that we have for Lil Lady takes the insurance that Lil Man will be on when he's born, so that was super comforting to know that we can just take him to the pedi that I like.  We'll have to see the doctor that is on call when he's born, because our pedi doesn't go to the hospital that I will deliver at, which is fine, but at least for everything after that, we can take him to the one we trust....and that's a big deal for me. :)  It will definitely be a sad day for me when our pedi retires (he's older) because I REALLY like him and trust him.

So we definitely have some stressful days/weeks ahead of us.  I'm going to try and stay as stress-free as possible, because I know it's what is best for Lil Man.  My parents will be home from California next week, thank goodness, which will make things a bit easier.  I REALLY miss my mom, and am struggling with having all this go on and not having her here.  She's definitely my rock and my strength, that's for sure.  So I suppose this is all for now.....I'm pooped, and should probably try and get some rest.  After I eat some pizza that is. :P

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Friday, May 25, 2012

Still not quite right.....

So I called the office today, and apparently they closed early or something, because I didn't get an answer.  It went to the answering service, and I know they can't tell me results, so I didn't wait to talk to anyone.  So, now I'll just have to wait until Tuesday to call and get any kind of idea of what's going on.

I've felt really crappy all day long.  I've been having some cramping today, and have just felt over all yucky.  If I remember right, I felt like this after having to take the 3 hour glucose test with Ava too, but it's hard to remember that far  I am tired, I am hungry, and I just generally feel like crapola.  I'm hoping that relaxing this weekend will help some.  Hubby is off work for the next 3 days, so he'll be here to take care of Ava so that maybe I can get some more rest and get rid of this ucky feeling.  Not that I haven't had help, because I have, but I have done a bit more the last couple days than I probably should have, just because he's been working.  It's definitely tough, that's for sure.  I'll make it through somehow....

I suppose this is it for now.  I need to get some stuff done for school, and I think I'm going to go lay down.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Glucose test, steaks, and sleep......

I didn't get nearly enough sleep last night.  I had to get up early this morning to head to the dr's office.  I did the 1 hour glucose test last week, and failed. :( So, today, I had to go do the 3 hour test.  Let me tell you, that SUCKED.  That stuff is just NASTY.  Bleh.  I still don't feel quite right.  I had to do the 3 hour when I was pregnant with Ava too, and it was just as nasty then.  Actually maybe a bit worse, because the crap they make you drink was room temp when I was pregnant with Ava.  At least it was chilled today.  But still, it was awful.  I get nauseated just thinking about it.

I think honestly though, the worst part of it is worrying about whether or not I'll have gestational diabetes.  I know that it's manageable, and not the end of the world, but being on bed rest, I can't really get out and walk to help make sure that I don't gain a crap ton of weight.  I just have this sneaky suspicion that I have GD.  And I'll just have to deal.  I know I'll get through whatever I need to, but it's just stressful.  I'll call the office in the morning, and we'll just go from there.

I'm waiting for the hubby to get home, and then he's going to make us steaks on the grill.  I know it'll be hella late to eat, but I'm hungry, so...whatever. :P  I'm pregnant I'll eat when I want! lol

This is going to be short, I'm just flat out exhausted, and I just wanna lay here and veg.  Maybe work on a word search puzzle or something.

Stay safe my friends, until we meet again.

Sunday, May 20, 2012

I realized today.......

Exactly how much I despise Chuck E. Cheese.  My youngest nephew turned 4 on Friday, and his birthday party was today at Chuck E Cheese.  We will NEVER have one of our kids' parties there.  The food is gross, over priced, and really just not worth it.  My nephews had a blast, we got to play some games too (the only benefit of having a child too young to use tokens herself), and it was nice being with family.  I got to pretty much sit the entire time.  Luckily for me, the doctor gave me the okay to go today, but I can tell that I'm going to pay for it tonight.  I'm just super uncomfortable.  I need to get my pill taken, and probably just go to bed.  I'm definitely going to take it super easy tomorrow, and probably not do a whole lot of anything.

This whole bed rest thing just really sucks.  I know that it's for the best, and we need my boy to stay in there as long as possible, I just really don't like being confined to the couch.  It drives me crazy. :P  I keep hoping that time is going to go a bit faster, and it just doesn'

The apartment complex that we live in opened the pool today, and it would have been the perfect day to go over there, but I don't know that my swimsuit will fit, and I'm not sure whether it's a good idea for me to even attempt it. That'll be a question for the doctor at my next appointment, I guess.

I am going to make this a pretty short entry, I'm pooped from being out all afternoon/evening.  I'm going to take my meds, and head to sleepy land.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Another long night.........

So, this past weekend was pretty eventful.  My brother and sister in law from SA came over for the weekend.  It was nice getting to see them.  Saturday was my brothers' birthday, so we all got together at J & D's house for dinner and cake and ice cream to celebrate their day as well as T & I's.  Our birthdays were in April, so we just celebrated them all at the same time.  Food was good, company was great, and even though Hubby had to work, we had a nice time.  Sunday was Mother's Day, so we went to church in the morning, and then all of us, including my parents, both brothers and their wives and nephews went to lunch.  I started having a bit more cramping toward the end of church and during lunch, so when Hubby & I got home, I drank some water and laid down on my side.  It didn't ease up, so I called the OB, and had to make another trip to the hospital.  My parents met us at the hospital, since they weren't home, so that they could pick up the baby and keep her for us so that she wasn't stuck at the hospital.  They hooked me up to the monitor, made sure that Lil Man was doing okay, and then took him off, but kept the contraction monitor on me.  I ended up getting another shot of terbutaline to stop the contractions.  They didn't do an IV, but sent me home with a script for a medication to help keep contractions at bay.  My OB was actually at the hospital, so he came in and examined me.  Said he thought my cervix was thinning some, so he ordered a sono.  Sono showed that my cervix is okay, but he put me on bedrest.  The most I can get up for is to shower and pee and that's it.  Which makes taking care of a 13 almost 14 month old REALLY difficult.  Hubby is here for the morning and into the early afternoon, and my parents are able to help some, but it's REALLY tough emotionally for me.  I'm NOT handling it very well, and this is really only day 2 of me having to be on bedrest.  Let me just bluntly say, it SUCKS.  I am NOT happy with it at all, but I really don't have a choice.  It's important to get this baby to, at a minimum, 36 weeks.  It's difficult to say the least.  I had a break down today, and cried a couple of different times, because I am just SO scared and unsure of what the future holds for me and my beautiful baby boy.  I really wish that I could see into the future and KNOW what's going to happen.....but I know that's not a possibility.  And I know that my worry only causes my parents, especially my mom, to worry more, and I just can't hold it in, because I'll explode.  I never thought that being on bedrest would be so emotionally taxing........good lord was I ever wrong.

At any rate, I will hopefully be able to update more often, although my posts are probably going to be pretty boring, since all I'm going to be doing is laying around doing nothing. *sigh* The nights are pretty lonely after my parents leave.  They were before bedrest, but they seem to be worse now for some reason.  Anyway, I'm going to close this out for now, and watch the Real Housewives of Orange County episode that I recorded tonight.  I LOVE this show.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Only a quick one........

I am completely and totally exhausted tonight, so this is going to be short and sweet.  The interview seemed to go pretty well today.  He said I would know by Wednesday if they want me to come in for a 2nd interview, so my fingers are crossed.  We'll just have to see what happens.  I sent a thank you card, so I'm hoping that doing that will be an added bonus.  We'll just have to see.

I did not mention the fact that I'm pregnant....but I think it was probably pretty obvious, seeing that my belly is HUGE. But, I dunno.  I figure if they call me back for another interview that I will inform them at that point.

I'm watching some TV, and thinking that I may actually be better off going to bed.  I am just REALLY tired for some reason tonight.  More so than normal.

So, this is going to be it for I said, short and sweet.  Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Late nights, job interviews, and worry...........

So, things with this pregnancy so far have been pretty uneventful.  That is until yesterday.  I'd been feeling some cramping off and on since Monday night after I went to bed.  Over the course of Tuesday, it had been getting progressively more uncomfortable.  I don't want to say painful, because it wasn't really painful.  Just annoying more than anything.  As the day turned into night, it got worse and more uncomfortable.  I told Hubby if it continued I was going to call the doctor in the morning.  So, yesterday morning, when I got out of bed after not sleeping well because of it, I called the OB's office.  I told the receptionist on the phone what was going on, and she said ok, I'll have the doctor call you back.  I figured honestly that it would be a nurse, not the doctor.  Well, lo and behold, the doctor himself actually called me back.  After talking to him for a bit and him asking me a bunch of questions, he told me that I needed to get to the hospital as soon as I could, so off I went.  I got there, and they hooked me up to the baby monitor and something that monitored any contractions I may be having (The typical stuff they hook you up to when you go in to have your baby).  They did a urine test and a swab test of my hooha, and I waited.  And waited. And waited.  A while later, the nurse comes in with a bag of fluid and the tubing for an IV and tells me that I just bought myself an IV and a shot to stop contractions. *sigh*  So, she hooked me up to all of that, and I got to wait some more.  She gave me the shot, which burned like a son of a gun.  I was told that I have a slight bladder infection, so I also got a bag of antibiotics, and I got sent home with 2 different antibiotics.  Basically, I was dehydrated, because I've not been drinking enough water, and with having a slight bladder infection on top of that, my uterus was freaking out.  My cervix was thick and closed, so they weren't too concerned with necessarily pre-term labor, but because of the irritability, I'm now at a higher risk for pre-term labor.  Yay.  So, I'm on pelvic rest for the next week at a minimum, and if it happens again or continues, I'm likely to be put on bedrest.  So, that was my excitement for yesterday.

I got home and took it easy for the rest of the day, and Hubby had to call in to work since I was gone so long (and the hospital is about 40 minutes away) so he stayed home last night to allow me to continue to take it easy.  He pretty well took care of the lil one so that I could rest.  I'm feeling MUCH better today.  Still having a tiny bit of discomfort off and on, but when I do, I know it's because I need to relax a bit and drink some water.  Once I do that, I pretty well immediately feel better.

In other news,  I have a job interview tomorrow.  I'm nervous, because it's been 2 years since my last job interview, and because I'm pregnant.  There's no way that I can hide it, because I'm HUGE, and I just worry that it's going to prevent me from getting the job. *sigh*   When he called me today, I commented about having a 1 year old, and he said "my secretary is here with her newborn.  The baby is sleeping and she's working, if that tells you anything about us."  I'm HOPING upon hope that they will be okay with me being pregnant.  If worse comes to worse, I'll only take the 2 weeks that I can't drive after having Collin off, and then go back to work.  Hubby can be home with him the majority of the day, and then I may just have to have my sister in law keep the kids until we can find daycare for them.  I thought about getting them put on the waiting list, but I don't want to do that until I know for sure if I even have the job.  I should TOTALLY be in bed at this point, because I have to leave my house NO later than 9:30 to get to the interview, and I'll probably want to leave a bit before that, but I also want to wait for Hubby to get home from work, because he's going to need some dinner.  But once he's home and got his dinner, I'm taking myself to bed.  I have to figure out what I'm going to wear tomorrow too....I don't have much in the way of nice clothes that still fit my pregnant self.........I can't believe how nervous I am..........  It's insane.

Well, I suppose I've rambled on long enough tonight........I need to get myself some more water and something to munch on.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

6 weeks later..............

I am REALLY terrible about keeping up with this thing....and I'm not sure why.  Probably because I just don't think about it.  I have said multiple times that I need to get better about it, and I haven't yet.  I just haven't figured out how to juggle a baby (who is really almost a toddler), school, housework and looking for a job in an effective enough manner, and my grades are suffering for it. :( I'm trying to get a routine down, especially with baby #2 coming, and it just hasn't been working out in my favor.  And it seems like the harder I try, the harder I fail.

We did find out that baby #2 is going to be a boy. <3 I couldn't be happier.  Hubby is beyond thrilled, and everyone else in the family seems to be pretty stoked about another baby too.  My sister in law that lives in San Antonio is pregnant as well, though she's not due until October.  It's pretty exciting that we're going from 3 cousins to 5 in a matter of months.

Hubby and I have decided that this is going to be our last baby.  We only ever wanted 2 kids, so....I'll be getting my tubes tied after the baby comes.  I need to get some serious amounts of shopping done.....having a girl, we have nothing for a boy. lol.  I have bought some clothes for him, but 4 onsies isn't going to get the kiddo very far! :P  He has 1 towel, and 1 bib too....but there again, that's not going to get us very far......I'll be doing a heck of a lot of laundry.......

I'm hoping that here in a couple weeks we'll go shopping and start buying more clothes and such for him.  My mom has a bassinet/playpen thing that she's going to let us borrow.  I was just going to use the one we had for Ava, but it won't fit in our room very well, and the one she has is smaller and will be a better fit.  We got his carseat, I just need to clean it and wash the cover.  We got it used, which has me a tiny bit nervous, but we got a killer deal on it, so couldn't pass it up.  It just seems like time is going by so quickly, and I'm terrified that I won't be ready for his arrival.

Well, I suppose I should probably get some homework done before Hubby gets home from work.  I PROMISE, I'm going to try and get better about posting more consistently, and try to get a bigger reader base going.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

3 months later.........................

So, it's been a while since I've written.  Life has kind of gotten in the way, and I've just not taken a whole lot of time to sit down and put my thoughts into words.

Hubby and I got moved into our own place (FINALLY!!!!!!) and it's nice having our own space, and being able to do what we want, when we want without worrying about bothering Mom & Dad.  We are not too terribly far from my parents, which is nice, because they are close if we need anything or if they need anything.  It's nice being able to see them every day or not every day.  Mom's had a hard time not having Ava there every day, but she's adjusting.

In other news, we found out 2 weeks ago that we are expecting #2. Lol.  I have to laugh because it was a complete and total shock.  I'm 18 weeks today, and we just had no idea at all.  I had no symptoms, no signs at all other than my cycles weren't quite right.  I have my first doctor's appointment on Thursday.  I am feeling a little bit of movement, but nothing real consistent.  When I had the pregnancy verified, the place I went offered a free sono, so I got to see Baby.  I'm hoping on Thursday that we will get another glimpse of our little one, and they will be able to tell us whether or not it's a boy or girl.  Mom seems to think that we're having another girl, Hubby's desperately hoping for a boy, and I'm good either way, just as long as the baby is healthy.

I am so eager to get to this appointment and figure out 100% for sure how far along I am, and HAVE a doctor so that if anything happens, I know who I can call.  I know I will feel better knowing that I'm okay, and that Baby is okay, and that things are for sure fine, and they will be able to tell me all of that when I go in on Thursday.  I'll make sure that I post an update, even if I don't think anyone reads this

So, anyway, this is about all I've got for's late, and I know Ava's going to be up early and I'm going to have to get up with her.  This pregnancy is kicking my butt in the sleep department....I have a hard time falling asleep, and staying asleep.  I can't get comfortable, and when I do, Hubby rolls over or something....or the cat jumps on the bed and scares me half to death. Lol.

Anyways, stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again!