Thursday, July 17, 2014

Play dates, mac n cheese, and cleaning

This week has been a tough one, to say the least.  Cookie is REALLY missing Nana, which is making me miss her more too.  I can't blame Cookie....she has really only known life with Nana right here.  We moved here when Cookie was 7 weeks old, and have seen my parents really frequently the whole time.  I think there has only been 3 times since we moved here 3 years ago that my parents weren't around for more than a couple days.  Maybe 4 times.  It's tough to say the least.

One of the moms from my MOPS group has 2 kids that are really close in age to Cookie and Muscles, and so we've gotten together a couple times this week for a lunch play date.  It's been nice having someone to come and break up the monotony of being at home with the kids all day alone.  I almost feel like I'm cheating on my bestie in IL, Rose, but I have to break up the staying at home all day every day with the kids by myself.  We had mac n cheese and strawberries for lunch, with cookies for dessert.  It's nice having some kids close to my kids' ages that can come play and keep my kids entertained for a bit.  Even if they fight and argue some. ;) Kids will be kids, and mine are at that age where they are trying to figure out what it means to share.  It's been really nice knowing that they are having fun while learning at the same time.

We had a little bit of a rain shower not too long after they left, but it seems to have passed over without doing much. We REALLY need the rain, and we're not really getting the amount that we need.  We're supposed to get rain until Sunday, so I really hope that it starts to pick up a bit here soon.

I should be doing laundry or cleaning, and I just can't seem to want to get up off my ever expanding butt to do anything.  I think a lot of my laziness today has to do with the fact that I didn't sleep very well last night.  Cookie got up at some point and got in bed with us, and then she was up when Hubby got up for work, which meant that I was up.  I got her to lay down with me and sleep for a while longer, but then she was up again at 7, wanting to watch cartoons.  So, 6 hours of broken sleep really just didn't do me any good.  Now the kids are both down for a nap, and I should be doing SOMETHING, but I'm sitting on the couch, with the computer in my lap, watching True Blood.

I'm really looking forward to the day when the kids can help clean up and do their laundry and wash dishes.....not sure when that will actually happen

I suppose this is it for now, I really need to go get the kitchen cleaned up, and grab something to snack on.

Light, love and True Blood.  Until next time, my friends.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

It's here, and it sucks.

The day that I have been dreading for the last 6 months has arrived.  My parents left tonight to begin their new adventure in a town 4 hours away.  I HATE it.  HATE it.  Did I mention that I hate it?  It's not something that I ever figured would happen.  It happened in 2008, before Hubby and I were married.  We lived in IL and Mom & Dad moved down here to TX.  It never crossed my mind that 3 years after we got here, they would have to leave again.

It's been a rough day, to say the least.  BUT, my husband, is his wonderful, loving wisdom, arranged to have the day off today, so that he was able to be home with me and keep me distracted.  Which, he did a really good job of, until about now.  He's in bed sleeping, and I should be, and I'm not.  Instead, I'm sitting up, thinking about the fact that my parents are sleeping in a hotel tonight, instead of where I feel like they should be in their house.

I'm watching Parenthood, which isn't helping my emotional state right now either.  But, I am completely in love with this show.

I suppose I should go hop in the shower and try and get some decent sleep.  I know it's unlikely to happen, because I can't seem to shut off my brain, but I have to at least try.  I will try and update more tomorrow.

Light, love and the end of Parenthood on Netflix. <3

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Trying to hold myself together.................

And it's not working very well.

My parents, who have been my rock, my support, and SO involved with Cookie and Muscles are moving to a town about 4 or so hours away from here.  I am NOT taking it well, at all, and it's been tough.  Cookie really isn't old enough to even understand.  Muscles is definitely not old enough to get it, and I don't know how I'm going to get Cookie through that transition to not having her Nana right around the corner.

The movers are coming to pack Mom & Dad's house tomorrow, and then will load on Thursday and into Friday. *sigh* I am so NOT ready for this.  Just not ready at all.  It seems like the last 6 months since we found out about the move have just flown by, and it's here and I'm just not ready for it to be here already.

They leave on Monday, and it's coming so soon.......I really don't like it.  It's not something that I thought would even happen....and it did, and it sucks.

So, here I sit, up way too late, because I can't get my brain to shut off long enough for me to get tired.  I could just sit here and cry, but what good would that do me?  Not much, except make my eyes puffy and make me look worse than I already do. :P

I really don't know what to do with all the feelings that are running around in my head.  The thought of not having my parents at my disposal really stinks.  4 hours is so incredibly do-able in a weekend, it's not like we'll be so far apart that we'll only get to see them once a year or anything, but it just stinks.  I have gotten so used to just dropping by whenever, and now I can't do that, and I don't like it at all.

We'll have Face Time on our iPhones, which is not even close to the same, but at least the kids will get to see Nana and Ra-ra whenever they want, pretty much.  I just wish that the time wouldn't have crept up so quick.  I wanted more time, and I feel like I wasted time doing other stuff when I could have been spending it with them.

In other news, school isn't going as well as I'd hoped, which is making me crazy.  I have so many worries, and I can't seem to get them under control.  It's annoying more than anything.  I know that in the long run, everything will work out and be's just a matter of getting to that point.

I suppose that I should close this out and get myself to bed.  I have a lot of things to do tomorrow, and I'm sure that Cookie and Muscles are going to be up at the crack of dawn like they always are.

Light, Love and Parenthood. <3 I will write more as I can...I miss writing more.........