Saturday, July 28, 2012

Heavy heart...........

I'm not going to say a whole lot tonight, because I'm still trying to wrap my brain around everything that's gone on today.

My brother & sister in law are likely heading toward divorce. :( Things have been rocky between them at best the last couple of years and it's just not been good.  My youngest nephew had an accident while my SIL and nephews have been in IL this summer, and my brother pretty well told my SIL that she's a horrible mother because it happened. *sigh* There's SO much more to the story, but I just don't have the energy to get into it all tonight.

I'm devastated.  My SIL was my maid of honor, she's one of my best friends, and I've REALLY enjoyed having her at my disposal since we moved down here.  I'm sad that I won't have her here when Lil Man is born, I'm sad that I won't get to see my nephews whenever I want, I'm sad that this is all happening to them.  It's just a sad situation.

So, please, keep my brother, SIL & nephews in your prayers as they go through this transition and decide what is best for their family.

I'm going to just close it out for tonight with that.....I don't have the umph to do anymore.  I'm going to get a shower and head to bed, and hope my brain is a bit more clear tomorrow.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Olympics Opening Ceremonies, sleepiness, and being uncomfortable.......

That pretty well sums up my night.  I'm exhausted.  I'm REALLY tired of being pregnant.  This boy could be born at any time, and I would be completely okay with it.  Hopefully not too much longer.

We recorded the opening ceremonies for the Olympic games, and I have to say, after Beijing, it was a bit of a disappointment. :( Can't expect that it would top Beijing, but it would have been nice if it'd come close.  I LOVE the Summer Olympics.  I love the Olympics period, but the Summer Games are my favorite by far.  I'm really excited to see how it goes for the U.S.

I don't really have a whole lot else to say tonight, so I suppose this'll be about it.  I need to take my uncomfortable pregnant self to bed, and try to sleep if I have any hope of getting anything accomplished tomorrow.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Monday, July 23, 2012


So, I completely suck at this blogging thing.  I really need to get better about it, especially since I am on the computer for a while after Lil Lady goes to bed at night, but I just tend to forget about it. :(

A quick update on me.....went to the OB on Thursday, and he cleared me from bed rest, said I could resume ALL normal activities (this made Hubby VERY and we're on the path to evicting Lil Man.  I'm SO ready for him to be OUT.  I'm guessing probably another week to week & a half.  We'll just have to see.  I'm 36 weeks now, so anytime would be fine.  Doctor said that if I were to go into labor at any time, he'd be okay with it, so that's where we're at.

The subject came up about what we wanted to do for birth control, and since Hubby & I have decided that 2 is our limit, the option we feel would work best is for me to have my tubes tied.  I told the OB that I would prefer that he just take it out, and he commented that I was too young.  So then the conversation turned to how awful my periods are and always have been, the endo, and how miserable being a woman basically makes me.  So, he told us to REALLY discuss it, and if we decided that a partial hysterectomy is the direction that we wanted to go, then he would submit the information to the insurance and we would go from there.  In researching things, because this isn't a choice I am going to make lightly, I've come up with some more questions, so when I go back on Thursday of this next week, I'm going to ask those questions, and depending on the answers, hopefully make my decision.  I am really leaning toward having it done, because like I said, my periods are and always have been completely awful.  They were even worse after having Lil Lady, and I frankly do not want to go through the next 20 or so years of my life dealing with it.  I've already dealt with it for more than 1/2 my life, I think that's long enough.

Someone asked me about why I would want to do it, because what if, God forbid, something happen to one or both of my kids...wouldn't I want the chance to have another baby?  And my answer to that is....I don't know.  I'm 33 going on 34, and I always said that I would not have a biological child after 35.  There are more risks after 35, the pregnancy can be harder on the mother, etc.  My pregnancies, while not completely awful, have not been the easiest, especially emotionally, so I don't think I would want to put myself or Hubby through that again.  There are other ways we could have another child, should the need arise, and I would much rather pursue those than put myself through a difficult or risky pregnancy.  Being a mother is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I wouldn't trade my kiddos for anything in the entire world. I would be absolutely devastated if something happened to one or both of them, and the question of whether or not I would want to have another wouldn't factor in for a LONG time, I wouldn't think.  It is a very personal decision, and not one that I'm entering into lightly.  I am doing a lot of research, talking to my most trusted friends, and asking the uber important questions to the doctor that I have come to completely trust, which is something I didn't think I would do after moving away from the doctor that delivered Lil Lady.

A partial hysterectomy would leave my ovaries, so I wouldn't go into early menopause, necessarily.  There is still a possibility that it could happen.....but it could happen even if I had my uterus, so...that's not really a factor for me.  Like I said, there are some things that I want to discuss with my doctor, and once those questions are answered, I will make my decision.

So, anyway, there's my update.  Now I think I'm going to go chew on some Tums, because I have heartburn, yet again, and I am close to being ready to head to bed.  I'm pooped.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again. :)

Friday, July 13, 2012

Long but decent day....

Today was definitely a long day.  Lil Lady didn't sleep well last night, which equates to ME not sleeping well last night.  She was up pretty early this morning, and then her nap was interrupted by a stinking thunderstorm that scared the crap out of me! The cat was hiding pretty well all day long as well.  It seemed like as soon as it stopped raining, it would start again 5 minutes later.  At one point we had a lake on the side of our  It went down, but there for a while I was really worried that it was just going to keep getting higher.

Lil Lady is getting some new teeth in, so she's been pretty miserable, and now on top of it, I think she's getting a cold. :(  There was another little one at the church meeting on Wednesday, and apparently she had a cold, and I think she gave it to Lil Lady. :(  She's been up several times since going to bed already, and she's been running a little bit of a fever.  I gave her some tylenol and snuggled her for a little bit, and laid her back down, and she seemed okay....but she's been crying off and on since then.  I'm hoping that she'll sleep through the night, but I'm not going to count on it.  So, I have a feeling that it's going to be a long day tomorrow too.

My dad has been gone to Salt Lake City for work all this past week, and he's coming home tomorrow, so we're going to have my parents over for dinner.  Lil Lady has MISSED her Grandad. <3  She's going to be SO excited to see him when he gets here.  We have to go do some grocery shopping tomorrow, and I am trying to get a list together, and not having much luck.....I just can't seem to wrap my brain around it.  I really would love to just go to bed, but Hubby isn't home from work yet, and I don't feel like I got to spend a whole lot of time with him earlier today, so I'm looking forward to getting to have him here when he gets home.  We're going to have dinner, and then get to bed so we can get up early to get shopping done and get the house picked up, etc before my parents get here tomorrow.

We're going to have pizza for dinner tonight.  It's the only thing that sounded good to me earlier.  So, Hubby is going to stop at the store on his way home (Gotta love 24 hr Walmart) and grab a couple pizzas and some soda.  I'm looking forward to it, because it just sounds good.

I suppose this is about it for tonight.....I'm wiped out, and looking at the computer screen is making it worse. I'm hoping that Lil Lady sleeps through the rest of the night, because I just don't know that I have the umph to be up with her 1/2 the night.....and I know Hubby doesn't after working all day.  We'll have to see what happens.

So, stay safe and be blessed my friends...until we meet again.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Long day....

Today felt like a really long day even though in actuality it wasn't.  The bug guy came and sprayed this morning, waking us all up when they knocked on the door.  That wasn't fun.  Lil lady took an early nap because of it, so I took advantage and took a nap myself.  It was REALLY nice...I actually got comfortable in bed for the first time in I can't tell you how long.  When Lil Lady woke up, I was really sad, because I was comfy and wasn't ready to get up yet! :P  I'm going to be heading to bed REALLY soon, because I am just wiped out.

The church that we belong to has been in between pastors, and finally may have picked a new pastor, so we had a meeting tonight to determine if we as a church were going to extend an offer to her.  She answered questions and told us a bit about herself and I REALLY like her.  I think she's going to bring a fantastic new view to the church, and she will bring a younger perspective as well.  We voted to yes, extend an offer, so now it's just waiting to see if she's going to accept it.

Well, Hubby just brought me a root beer float, so I'm going to finish that and go to bed....I'm pooped.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I can't think of something good to title this......

So, I'm choosing to NOT have a title.  Uh oh....better call the blog police! :P LOL.  It's been a LONG day....I'm so tired of not sleeping well....But that's not going to change until this baby is out of my belly and about 6 months old.  At least once he's out of my belly though I can lay a bit more comfortably on the bed.  My nails are finally starting to grow a bit on their that the pregnancy is almost  But hey, I'll take it however I can get it!

I am 34 weeks now, which is fantastic.  Lil Man is moving up a storm ALL the time, especially when I'm trying to sleep or relax. :) He gets the hiccups pretty often, just like Lil Lady used to, which makes me laugh. Also like Lil Lady used to, he kicks Hubby all the time when we're in's really funny.  I'll snuggle up next to Hubby, and Lil Man just goes insane kicking him.  It's fantastic.

I'm looking forward to meeting him, and finally having him HERE.  Though I really can't complain, because this pregnancy has gone by SO fast.....and I'm sure that the main reason for that is that I didn't find out until 16 weeks....that's almost 1/2 way through....I got to skip the whole scary first trimester.

My parents have bought so much for him here the last few weeks since they've been home, it's been fantastic.  Mom got a bassinet for him, that once he outgrows it we will give back to her and a bunch of clothes.  I am not worried about him being naked, that's for sure. <3  And a lot of the outfits that she bought are just too cute for words.  I'm really looking forward to getting him here, and having my family complete.

I did have a doctor's appt last Thursday.  I'm dilated to a 1, but still only 25% effaced, so not a whole lot of progress.  I don't have to get anymore shots (Thank the Lord...those things SUCKED) and I kind of sorta took myself off bed rest.  I just can't stand laying around doing absolutely NOTHING anymore.  If Hubby is home, I have him lift Lil Lady and such, but once he goes to work, I'm on my own.  I did okay today....she plays with her toys, and getting her into her high chair was kind of tough, but we'll make due.  I just can't stand having everyone else take care of drives me batty.  I have a bit of a hard time getting around, so it's not like I'm back to doing full fledged everything, because I simply can't do it.  I can't even hardly roll over in bed, so going back to full fledged everything just would NOT  I'm very lucky that Hubby is so awesome, because he still does a lot around here making sure that things run smoothly.  Which, if it wasn't for him, none of us would have clean clothes, and the house would look like bums lived in it.

Well, I suppose this is it for tonight.  It's starting to rain, and I'm pooped, so I'm going to try and get some sleep.  Though, I know it's almost pointless, but I've gotta at least try.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Quick little update...

I just realized that it's been like a week or something since I posted an update.  Not much to update really.  Still on bed rest.  Still getting shots in the ass to prevent contractions.  Still ready for this pregnancy to be over.  I feel a bit more prepared to have him arrive though, so that's a good thing.  He's got clothes, a couple blankets, and a bed to sleep in (once we get it from my mom's house.....the play pen/bassinet that we had for Lil Lady won't fit in our room so we're using the one my mom works).  I'm still a bit nervous about having a preemie, but I'm 33 weeks now, will be 34 come Saturday, and 6 weeks early isn't so bad.  I have another doctor's appt on Thursday, and they will check and see if I've dilated anymore then.  I'm hoping that I have, otherwise I'm likely to cry that the contractions I've been having haven't done anything.....the meds I'm taking are supposed to stop them, and the meds don't stop crap.  The shots help for the first day or so, and that's it.  It really just seems kind of pointless, at this point, because I know that even though he'd be early and small, he'd be fine.  I am just definitely ready to be done being pregnant. *sigh* And I hate feeling that way.....I should be thankful that I'm able to have a baby...especially after everything we went through to get Lil Lady here, and knowing all the people I do that have been unable to have the baby of their's hard for me to feel the way that I do. :( But, I can't help it.  Being pregnant this time has been absolutely miserable for me.  The ONLY thing that I've enjoyed about it is feeling Lil Man move.  Being on bed rest has really taken the majority of the joy of pregnancy out of it for me.  I suppose this is going to be it for tonight......I'm tired, even though I do nothing but lay around all freaking day.  I need to get into a more comfortable position, and the couch just isn't cutting it.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.