Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Holy headache Batman....

I am really tired of the headaches.  They are pretty frequent anymore, though not horribly painful, they are mainly just annoying.  I am fairly certain that they are caused because I need to have my eyes checked and probably get a new prescription. I just haven't wanted to spend the money on the exam, but I'm going to HAVE to, because the headaches are not going away.

My new classes started yesterday, and holy crap, it's going to be A LOT of work.  I'm a bit overwhelmed, and I'm going to have to really buckle down and work on stuff daily, but I know it's going to totally be worth it in the long run.  I should be working on some of it now, but I haven't had much of a chance to do any catching up today.

I am pretty wiped, so I should probably get off here and get ready to head to bed.  Ava didn't nap much this afternoon, so.....I hope she naps a bit more tomorrow.  We'll see......

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again!

Monday, October 24, 2011

Unsent, and should be unsaid, but I can't help myself.

You.  Yes, you.  GO AWAY. You keep coming around like you still matter, when in fact you DON'T.  You keep popping up and saying things and talking like you have a right, when in reality that right left a long time ago. I shouldn't even give you a second thought, but you are just always THERE.  It's almost like there is no escaping you, and it drives me insane.  I wish I could stop thinking about you but I can't.  The wonder will always be there, like a scab just aching to be picked at.  Will I scratch it, causing the wound to bleed all over again?  No, but the desire is so strong that it takes everything I can muster to avoid it.  There are things I would love to say to you, but it's not worth the effort and breath it would take.  And I'm afraid that the hurt it would cause would outweigh the pleasure I would get from it all.  I would never want to cause the hurt that I know would accompany it.

One day, you won't matter anymore.....to anyone, and I feel sorry for that.  But it's a fact.  Karma will come around 10 fold, and I will try my hardest not to laugh.  I will hope that Karma gives you what you deserve, but leaves you still able to somewhat function, and then you'll see the pain and hurt that you cause others, and maybe, just maybe, you'll grow up and learn something from it.  It's doubtful, but I can hope, can't I?

Friday, October 21, 2011

Wacky Wednesday.....

Today was just....I don't know.  Kind of hectic, I guess would be the best way to describe it.  Ava's not been feeling super well since her shots yesterday, so she was kind of fussy all day.  She didn't nap hardly at all.  I'm hoping that she sleeps well tonight.  Mom and I have nail appointments in the morning, and I should be in bed, because we have to be ready to leave no later than 8:30, so I'm going to have to get up at 7:30 to get Ava up and fed and ready to go. *sigh*

I had a crappy week as far as the weight loss saga goes, and I'm just completely frustrated with the whole thing. I feel like giving up and saying screw it, but I can't do that.  Ava deserves better than that.  She deserves a mommy who wants to get down on the floor and play with her, and who will be able to chase her around once she starts walking....and right now, I can't do that.  I want to be able to keep up with her, and not have to tell her no, Mommy's too tired. *sigh*  It's just really frustrating, and I can't seem to find the motivation to get up off my big ass and do anything.  I can't even seem to commit to walking at all. :(  It's pathetic.  I need to just make myself start doing SOMETHING.  Even if it's putting in a workout dvd/video while she's napping.  Something's GOT to give.  I'm not getting any younger, and it's not going to get any easier to lose weight.

But, on a much happier note, this is my last week of class for this module.  I'm looking forward to starting the new module on Monday.  I changed majors, and will be starting my Early Childhood Education classes.  I'm taking Psychology and Foundations of Early Childhood Education, and I'm really looking forward to both.  I always did like Psych stuff, and obviously Foundations of ECE is the start of my degree.  I'm excited to get done and get through this.  I want to teach either Kindergarten or First Grade.  We'll see what happens, and what I have to do for the state to get my certification. :)

Well, as you can see....I didn't get this done, and it's FRIDAY. *sigh*   Ava has been SUPER fussy the last couple of days, and she isn't sleeping well either.  She was up several times last night, and just doesn't seem to be sleeping well.  I got her swing back out, and she's sleeping in it now.  Hopefully she'll stay asleep for a little bit.

I suppose I should get this posted before I forget again.  I'm sure I'll write more later.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Monday, Monday.....

And so it is Monday....and what a day it is.  Mom & Dad got home from the cruise, they had a good time.  We had everyone here for dinner last night, and it was SUPER hectic.  But, it was a lot of fun. :)  Mom brought us back some really awesome souvenirs and some super cute clothes for Ava.  I got some pretty earrings, and some things to hang on the wall, and Joe got some more shot glasses to add to his collection.  I need to find him a shelf or something to put his shot glasses on.  I know they make a thing to display them in, but I can't remember where I've seen them.  That would be something good for me to get him for his birthday, which is Monday. :)

It's hard to believe that we've been married for 3 years as of tomorrow. <3 It's just unreal.  I have never been so happy in all my life.  I am so thankful that I have him for my partner.  It's crazy to me that it's been 5 years since we got together, and 3 since we tied the knot.  I don't know what I would do without him in my life.  He's such a blessing, and I couldn't have picked a better partner, or man to be the father of my beautiful girl.

It's late, and once again, I should be in bed, but I'm not.  I'm tired, but I didn't get the chance to get online much today, and I have some stuff that I HAVE to get done tonight. This is going to be a short post, because like I said, I have some stuff that I need to get done.

I hope you all had a good Monday, and I hope your Tuesday is even better.  Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again!!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Friday...oh Friday.

Oh, how I'm glad that it's Friday.   It's been a rough week to say the least.  My parents have been gone on their cruise since last Sunday, and they are coming home in 2 days.  I've been going absolutely bat shit crazy not being able to talk to my mom.  Since the cruise was to the Caribbean, the cell phone charges would have been INSANE, so I've not been able to call or text her the whole time.  I'm not used to going this long without talking to my mom.  Even when we lived in IL, I talked to her at least 2 to 3 times a week.  It's been 6 days, and I'm going NUTS.

We also found out this week that a very, very dear friend of ours' mother has lung cancer, which is the same thing that hubby's mom died from. :(  So, it's very hard being 17 hours away, and not being able to be there for her other than on the phone.  D is an avid supporter of the American Cancer Society, through Relay for Life though, so she has some connections that are giving them some extra support and advice in all of this.  I can only pray that they've caught it in an early enough stage that she will have some success with chemo/radiation/surgery/however they approach treating it.  I don't know D's mom very well, but D and I have been friends since Jr. High, and she and Joe have been friends since the 1st grade.  Her hubby is Joe's best friend, and was a groomsmen in our wedding.  I was with D when she found out that her youngest was a girl, and I was at the hospital the day their daughter was born.  They have been SO supportive of everything Joe and I went through to get Ava, and they are just really amazing, awesome friends.

Please, send prayers, good vibes, happy thoughts, healing thoughts, whatever you do for Mrs. B.  It will be MUCH appreciated by the family.

I suppose that this is all for now.  I am going to finish this movie, and head to bed.  Joe and the baby are both sleeping, and I'm going to do some housework and mow the lawn tomorrow before my parents come home on Sunday.  I REALLY can't wait for them to get home.  I've missed them A LOT.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends.  Life is short, sometimes too short.  Always make sure to tell the ones you love how you feel.  Until we meet again.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

A new day

*sigh* It's only 11 am, and it's already been a LONG day.  I woke up with a migraine this morning, which prevented me from getting to see my nephews in the parade. :(  That doesn't make me happy.  But, it is what it is, and there's nothing I can do about it now.  I will get to see them here in a few minutes, because they are going to come over here for a bit. :)

Ava, for the first time ever, put herself to sleep. *squeal* The nap didn't last very long, maybe 30 minutes, 45 tops, but the fact still remains that SHE WENT TO SLEEP ON HER OWN!!! I didn't have to rock her, she didn't have her bottle, she went to sleep all by herself!  She is in a pretty good mood now that she's awake, and I should probably get her lunch ready to feed her.


Well, as you can plainly see, I didn't get the chance to finish this earlier.  Ah, the joys of being a wife and mother. :P  I also didn't get everything done at home that I wanted to either. *sigh*  But that's ok.  I have tomorrow to get some stuff done.  And then my brother and sister in law and nephews are coming over for dinner.  That should prove to be fun.  Let's just hope that my nephews come with their listening ears on.

I'm watching "How I Met Your Mother" and it's SO funny.  I had never watched it before we moved in with Mom & Dad.  And now it's one of my favorite shows.  It's on at 11 & 11:30, and so I usually end up watching both episodes before I head to bed.  It just kind of depends on how exhausted I am.

I'm eager for my next classes to start.  I am excited to get my new major under way, and see what the next year holds for me.  I'm hopeful that I'll be able to get my program completed in 2012, but I'm not totally sure that'll happen.  It'll probably be 2013 before I'm done, BUT that's going to give me a BA, so I'm good with that.  If I wanted to be done in 2012, it would only be an AS, and I would rather have the BA and be able to teach right away, not just be an assistant. :)  I am so at peace with the decision that I made, and I really think it's going to work out perfectly for us as a family.  I'll be home in the summer with Ava (and any other kids we may have) and I'll have breaks and such as well.  Plus, I'll be home on the weekends, and that's super important as well.  I want to be able to spend as much time with my kiddo(s) as I can.  One of the things I loved about my childhood is that my mom was home with us over the summer, and on the weekends and such, because she worked for the school district.  It was wonderful.  She was home at night with us, and we didn't spend a whole lot of time in daycare, or with a sitter, and that's what I want for my family too.  I'm looking very forward to being a teacher, and I really hope that I can do a good job with it.  I love kids, so....I think that it'll be a good place for me to be. :)

Well, I suppose that I should get this posted and get to bed.  I'm tired, and haven't been sleeping very well at night. So, I'm going to go snuggle next to my sleeping husband, after I peek at my beautiful little girl to make sure she is alright.  I completely and totally LOVE my life.  I couldn't ask for a better husband, and my precious girl is the light of my day.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends.  Life is short.  Tell those you love how you feel EVERY day.  You never know when it will be the last time. <3  Until we meet again.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


There.  I put a title.  Does it make any sense?  Not really, but I get so tired of trying to come up with some kind of creative title.  I am out of ideas.  I am too tired to think of anything creative.  So, there ya have it.

It's been a really long day.  I should totally be in bed (surprise, surprise) and yet, here I sit, typing away.  Tomorrow my nephews are both going to be in a parade (for the county fair) and so I have to be up fairly early to head to the square to see them in the parade.  Then I'm going to come home and try and get the rest of the housework done that I've flaked on all week.  I would like to try and mow the lawn before my parents come home on Sunday, but I can't really do that with Joe at work all day, because I have the baby.  I can't just leave her inside while I go outside to mow.  That would not be a good mommy move. :P

And now that it's midnight, and I can hardly hold my eyes open anymore, I am going to go to bed.  I had so much more to say, but I'm too pooped to think about it anymore.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Monday, October 10, 2011

What a week....

It's been just a crazy week.  Absolutely nuts.  Mom & Dad left on their cruise today.  Mom's birthday was Friday, and we surprised her with plane tickets to CA to see Grandma.  Grandma's going to be 75 on the 23rd, and so I figured what a fantastic present for both of them! It actually wasn't totally my idea, Dad was in on it, and so were both my brothers.  It just made sense to all of us to get her out there for it.  I know how important it was to her, so....

Other than that, my week was filled with helping Mom and Dad get ready to go on the cruise, being the fashion police for Mom, having a bad week at WW, not getting all my homework done, taking care of 3 dogs now, instead of just one, running errands, doing laundry, taking care of the baby, and generally feeling like I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. *sigh*  Even just reading that makes me tired.

Joe and I have the house to ourselves for a week, which is going to be nice.  I am going to try and get to HEB tomorrow, since we didn't make it there today.  Need to get some groceries, mainly meat.  We were going to go today, but we got a late start, and Ava was NOT having it.  She HATES being in her car seat for any kind of extended period, so....I'm going to try and make it as quick a trip as possible.  I have a list, so we'll have to see how that works out for me. :P

I suppose I should balance the checkbook so that I know what I can spend at the store...... *sigh* That's a job I despise. :(  Ah, well.

I guess I better go for now, because like I said, I need to balance the checkbook, and it's almost 1 am, and I need to get some sleep, because Ava's going to be up by 8.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Really getting sick of the insomnia......

I go through these phases where I can't sleep....and it's really starting to get annoying.  I hate that there are times when my mind won't shut off.....Like tonight.  I should have gone to bed a couple hours ago, because I really am pretty tired, but here I sit, in front of the computer.

It's midnight already.  The weather here has finally cooled off enough that we were able to open the windows and let the fresh air in.  It still got up to about 86 today, but it stayed relatively cool inside.  We've got the windows open tonight, and it's supposed to get down in the 50's, which will make it nice and cool in here in the morning.  I'm REALLY looking forward to that! :)

I am going to change my major at school.  I just need to get the paper emailed back to my advisor.  Hopefully that'll get done on Wednesday (I can't scan it here at home, Dad'll have to take it to work, and he's off tomorrow).  I am going to just take the plunge and do it.  I know I can, so why not?

I guess I should really get to bed.  Ava's going to be up no later than 8:30, would be my guess, even though she didn't nap AT ALL today. :(  Poor baby.  That equaled me not getting a whole lot done today.  So, it'll get put onto tomorrow's to do list.....gotta keep myself busy some how, huh?

Well, my friends, I hope you all had a fantastic Monday.  Now I'm going to head out and try to get some sleep.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Changing my mind....

Yet again. :P  Should this surprise anyone?  No, probably not.  But hey....if I didn't change my mind every so often, I would stop being me. :P

So, I've been bouncing around the idea of changing my major, because the more I thought about it, the more I realized that working in a law firm or for corporate America isn't what I really wanted to do.  I want to be able to spend as much time as possible with my family (however big it gets... :P ) and working a corporate job wasn't really going to allow me to be able to do all that I wanted to do.  So, I've been doing some research, and looking into other degrees that are available, and how long it'll take, etc, and I think I've FINALLY decided what I want to do.

I think I want to go into Early Childhood Education.  I LOVE kids.  Absolutely 100% LOVE them.  I enjoyed teaching Sunday School and Vacation Bible School the years that I taught, and I really think I would love being a school teacher.  I'm going to talk to some of my friends who are teachers about it, and go from there, but I am thinking that come Monday, I'm going to submit my change of degree form.  It will take me a bit longer to get done, since I'll be switching from an associates to a bachelors, BUT, once I get my bachelors, I'll be able to teach at a private school without being certified.  If I want to go through a public school, then I'll have to get certified with the state.  I can cross that bridge when I get closer.  However, there is a private school right here in town, which would be super convenient.  I want to teach either preschool or kindergarten.  MAYBE first grade, but I'm thinking more kindergarten.  I should probably talk to my sister in law too, because she's a preschool teacher. :)  Kids are so curious at that age...and wanting to learn....I think it'll be a blast. :)

Ava is getting her very first tooth. :) It's broken through the gum, and you can feel it.  She's pretty miserable, too.  Poor thing.  She's SO close to crawling too....she's just growing WAY too fast for me.  It won't be long before I'm having to chase her down and having to put her in the play pen to keep her out of stuff. :P  She is SO much fun, and she's really starting to laugh a lot now.  It's hard to believe that she's already 6 months old.

I suppose I best get off the computer and get to bed.  I'm EXHAUSTED.  Ava was up at 6 am and I didn't get to bed until after 1.  And here it is, 12:22 am, and I'm STILL awake.  One of these days I'll learn that I need to go to bed at a decent hour. :P

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again!