Tuesday, October 26, 2010

16 weeks and counting!!!

And it's still just as unbelievable to me now as it was 7 weeks ago! <3  Things are going just like they should.  We go back to the doctor in about 3 weeks, for another sono, which will hopefully tell us if Baby is a boy or a girl.  Of course Joe is hoping for a boy.  My mom is praying for a girl.  I don't care either way, as long as baby is healthy.

I think Lil Man is sick again. :(  He seems to be running a fever off and on, and his nose has been runny.  I gave him some cold medicine tonight, and some ibuprofren, and I'm going to hope that he feels better tomorrow.  It seriously seems like the poor thing has been sick since we got him. :(  I really hope he isn't allergic to cats or something. :(  But, in other news....He was asked if he had to go potty, and he went potty on the big boy potty today!!!! YAY!!!!  I was SO happy!  The sooner I can get the 2 of them at least day time potty trained the happier I will be!  I'm just looking forward to no more 3 year old poopie diapers!!!!!

In other news....I think we found the crib/dresser/changing table that we want.  Now it's just a matter of getting it ordered and shipped.  Although, I'm almost 100% confident that my parents are going to get it for us.  We'll see.  We've figured out a shower date too....Feb 27th.  And I'm not sure how to do it, but I would really like it to be a co-ed shower, because I want Joe there.  I know that may seem kind of silly, but....I think it'll be fun! :)  We'll see what happens.  Oh, and we also found bedding that we like too.  But I'm going to wait to make any kind of solid decision on that until we find out for sure what we are having. <3

I suppose this is it for now....I need to take my pregnant self to bed, so I can get up with the kiddos in the morning to get Lil Man off to school.  Night, night!

Monday, October 18, 2010

It's our anniversary!!!! :)

And we are going to get to go out tonight without the kids! :) A dear friend of mine's daughter is going to watch them for us, and we're going to go to Alexander's (a WONDERFUL steak place) for supper, and then we're going to go see Case 39 at the movie theater.  I'm SO excited and ready for this!!!!!  I have a dr's appt in about an hour and a half, which is just a regular appt, no sono.  Then once I get back from there, it'll be freshen up a bit, wait for the sitter, and head to dinner!  I'm SO stinking excited!!! :)  My brother and sis in law gave us the dinner and the movie as our gift, which is just absolutely WONDERFUL!!! :)  I'm just so thrilled about it!  We didn't get to celebrate our anniversary last year, because hubby ended up having to work on our anniversary, which really stunk, but we actually get to go out and celebrate tonight!! :)  If you haven't noticed, I'm really happy about that fact!!!!

The kids are doing really well.  Lil Miss is being screened for pre-k on Friday (FINALLY), so we're hoping that goes well, and she can finally start school! We'll see what happens.  This week is a big appointment week for us...lol.  Lots of errands and WIC appts, and heck I don't even know what else...lol.  But I LOVE my crazy, hectic life! <3

Guess I better get the kids changed and ready for their naps.  Then I gotta get in the shower and get ready to go! :)

Friday, October 15, 2010

I really don't want/need any bad news right now.....

But apparently, the powers that be, have decided that it doesn't really matter what I want.  I got a letter today saying that I am no longer eligible for unemployment.  Which just effing SUCKS.  I don't know what we are going to do at this point.  I have to find a job, and find a job FAST, because we just CAN NOT afford for me not to have some kind of income coming in. *sigh*  I just want to sit here and cry.  But that won't do me any good either.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Sunday, Sunday....

Ah....what a wonderful way to end a good weekend.  Today we didn't do a whole heck of a lot.  Yesterday we went on Spoon River Drive, and did some shopping.....nothing too extravagant. We went to London Mills for some kettle korn, Farmington West, and Bernadotte.  We didn't even get out of the car at Bernadotte, because there were WAY too many people, and it looked like mostly a bunch of junk.  Then at Farmington West, we got some bread and butter pickles and sweet pickle relish.  The bread and butter pickles are AMAZING!!!!!  YUM!  We ran into Joe's aunt and uncle while we were there, and it was nice to get to see them (even if his aunt drives me nuts).  Then we made a run to Joe's step-dad's and spent a couple hours there with the twins, and the twins had a BLAST.  They rode on a 4-wheeler (Joe was with them) and Joe's step-dad took Lil Man for a ride on the tractor....which Lil Man LOVED.  It was awesome getting to see how Joe's step-dad was with the kids. <3  It was awesome.  He's going to be an awesome grandpa. :)

It's been a long day, though, that's for sure.  I didn't sleep very well last night (which isn't a surprise, because I haven't been sleeping well since about week 6 of this pregnancy, and I'll be 14 weeks on Tuesday).  I was awake every hour and a half to 2 hours last night, and it drove me NUTS.  I only actually got UP twice, which was a relief, but I just could not stay asleep for anything.  :(  It was really bad.  I think I'm going to try and go to bed early tonight (like within the next 15 minutes or so) and see if I can't get some better sleep tonight.  I'm just flat out TIRED, and not sleeping well isn't helping AT ALL. :(

Anyway, I am gonna scoot, and I'll try and update more tomorrow.....depending on how exciting my day gets! =P Although, we may be going to look at a new place tomorrow (we've been trying to get the hell out of this apartment for 2 months now).  We'll see what happens!

Friday, October 8, 2010

Ah, another day, another blog.............

**sigh**  I am REALLY missing my family today.  Yesterday was my mom's birthday, and tonight, my dad is surprising her by taking her to her favorite steak place, and both of my brothers are meeting them there. And I am stuck here in IL. :(  I love the friends that I have here, and this is the only "home" that Joe's ever known (since he was born and raised right here in central IL) but I hate missing my family so much.  We have pretty much decided that after the twins go back to the biological dad, and after the baby comes, we are moving to TX.  As long as we can come up with the money to move our stuff.  I will miss all my friends here, but my family is just SO important to me, and I do not want my child growing up with Grandma and Grandad so far away.

My WONDERFUL friend Stacey sent a box with a TON of clothes in it for the twins!! :) We got it in the mail today, and pretty much ALL of the clothes fit the kids.  I was SO excited!!! <3  Neither one of them had very many pants at all, and Lil Man only had 1 long sleeved shirt, while Lil Miss had NONE.  Now they are both set for a while, which is just AWESOME! :) And so many of the shirts will fit them both for a good long while...it's just FANTASTIC! :) :) :) :)

I suppose this is all for now....I am going to sit and relax until it's time to get the kids in the tub. :)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

So, why not.....another post on the first night.....I'm really not crazy....

Or am I?? LOL.  Only time will tell!

I sit here, with my fantastic husband, watching Hell's Kitchen (which we recorded on DVR, since he was at work), and I think back over the course of the last 5 years, and realize how far I've come.  5 years ago, I was freshly divorced, unhappy, and spiraling down a path that left a LOT to be desired.  Now, I'm married to my high school sweetheart (he was the first guy I dated in high school for those of you that didn't know ;) ), and we're expecting our first baby.

This is a day that I was really beginning to think was never going to come.  After 4 miscarriages, and many, many months of tears and screaming, and feeling like I should just quit, we are FINALLY pregnant, and it looks like it's stuck for the long haul! <3  We go back to the doctor on the 18th of this month (which also happens to be our 2 year anniversary!!!), and hopefully we'll get to hear the heartbeat, since we won't get a sono until sometime in November most likely.  I really almost can't fully express how thoroughly excited I am about this pregnancy, and the prospect of being a mom for the "first" time.  Not that I don't consider myself a mom to the twins, because I do, but it's just different.  The twins are fun, and I love watching them, and realizing how much they've grown and changed since we have had them, but the fact is that they aren't MINE.  This baby is MINE.  I daydream all day long about who the baby will look more like.....me or hubby.  I hope that baby has hubby's ear lobes...my chin dimple...our blue eyes, dark hair, ah....it's just SO exciting thinking that come April, we will have a little bundle of joy, that I will get to snuggle. :)

We have decided on names, even though at this point we don't know if Baby is a boy or a girl.  If Baby is a boy, his name will be Colin Joseph.  If Baby is a girl, her name will be Ava Melody.  The middle names are both family names, Joseph being for hubby and my grandad who passed away in April of 2005.  He was an awesome grandparent, and his death was VERY hard for me, as he died 2 days before my birthday.  Melody, is not only my mom's name, but hubby's mom's name, and she passed away in February of 2008, after a 14 month battle with cancer.  She was an awesomely special lady, and I feel VERY blessed to have had her as a part of my life for the time I did.  For those of you who don't know (which I'm fairly sure you all do, but....), my engagement ring is a blue diamond that Melody had for a VERY long time, and had decided that it would go to the woman that she felt was completely right for which ever of her sons found their mate first.  Hubby had been married before, and his brother has had a girlfriend (now fiancee) for a long time, and I am the one who got the diamond. <3   I know without a shadow of a doubt, that she is in heaven watching over us, and she sent this baby to us after years of trying and waiting. And I'm SO thankful.

I am by far the happiest that I've ever been in my life, and I just can't believe that my prayers have been answered after all this time.....it feels WONDERFUL. :)

I hope I haven't bored you guys yet, especially since this is only my 2nd post! :p  Until later!
Oye......Being the foster mom to twin 3 year olds is not as easy as one might think. **insert eye roll here**  Especially when one is pregnant and said twin 3 year olds are not potty trained, and REFUSE to tell you when they need to go potty. **sigh**  But like I've said before, and I will continue to say, I wouldn't trade my life for anything.  YES, things are hectic, more hectic than I ever could have imagined, but I LOVE every minute of it.

Lil Man and Lil Miss are a boat load of fun, and while I wish that I could keep them forever, I can't.  Their biological dad seems like a good guy, and is working hard to be able to get his kids back, and I really hope for his sake that he does....and really, it's not just for his sake....it's for the twins' sake too.  They light up like Christmas trees every time they see him when we get to a visit, and they cry when we leave....which rips my heart out.  But, things have to change at home before it's safe for them to go home.

This blog will likely be kept private so that I can post pics of the twins and the cute things that they do.  And of course things like sono pics, and Christmas, and all the fun parts of being a family. <3