Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Terrible, horrible, no good, very bad............

At keeping up with posting on my blog.  *sigh* I just feel so overwhelmed 99% of the time that I just don't think about writing here.  And I totally should, because this would be a fantastic place for me to get out all my frustrations.

Life always seems to get in the way of everything for me these days.  I lose touch with friends, I don't write in my blog, I just can't seem to get anything under control.

The kids are getting big.  C turned 4 months old last week already, and A is 20 months.  Hard to believe that my miracle baby is going to be 2 in March. And C is getting SO's crazy.  I am so blessed to have my babies.

So I mentioned in my last post that I was going to have a partial hysterectomy.  I did, and things went well.  I've had some struggles with hormones, and my moods swing from good to bad to worse in minutes, but I don't regret it at all.  The recovery process was long and frustrating, and I didn't think I was ever going to feel better or want to have sex again, but slowly things are attempting to get back to normal.  I really wish I would have done a bit more research on what to expect after a hysterectomy, because I was totally NOT prepared for the drastic shift in my emotions.  I felt like a nut job, and still do some of the time.  I find myself being really short tempered, and I lose my temper very quickly with Hubby.  And most of the time, he's not really done anything to tick me off, but I'm mad.  It's annoying.  Sex is not high on my radar these days either.  That is getting better, but there for a while, I couldn't stand him touching me.  That is definitely better, but my sex drive is just in the toilet.  It's annoying to say the least, and I'm sure it makes him feel like crap too.

Christmas is upon us, and I have completed my shopping.....kind of.  I still need to get something for Hubby's brother and sister in law, but I'm going to have to order it online and have it sent to them, because I can't find what I want here, and I'm running out of time.  I hate waiting until the last stinking minute, and it seems like that's what I always end up doing.  I have swore to myself that next year (if there is know, the world is supposed to end this week) I am going to have ALL my Christmas shopping DONE by Thanksgiving weekend.  I am NOT going to do this crap again.  But I say that every year, and every year I'm doing most if not all my shopping the week before Christmas when all the crazies are out.  This is my favorite time of year, but holy cow....People really get stupid crazy around Christmas.  I can't tell you the number of times that I got bumped into, cursed at, and pushed while walking through the mall.  Yes, I have a double stroller.  The thing is as big as a tank, so HOW does someone NOT see it?  If you walk into me, guess what, that's not MY fault.  Watch where you are walking.  I say excuse me if I need to.  Do not give me a dirty look because you are blocking the aisle while talking all ghetto on your phone.  I said EXCUSE ME! *sigh*

Now that I've ranted about that.......................I'm searching hard core for a job.  It's not something that I want to have to do, but I really don't have much of a choice.  I have to be able to take care of my kids, and let's just be honest, that's REALLY difficult to do most of the time with only one income.  We're doing okay, but definitely could be doing better.  I have had several interviews, and I know that I didn't get 2 of the jobs. :( It made me sad, because I felt like they both went really well, but *shrug* What do ya do?  I had another interview on Friday, and it went pretty good too.  I'm going to call the lady I interviewed with tomorrow, just to check in and see if they are anywhere near making a decision.  I really think I would like working at this job, because there is plenty of room for advancement, and some pretty awesome opportunities available with it.  I can only hope and pray that this is the job for me, and that this is God's plan for my life.  We need the money, and we would only have to put the kids in daycare for a couple hours a day, which would be ideal.

My brother and sister in law had a baby in October, and so I have another new nephew.  This is NOT the brother and sister in law that were having issues....they are over, and she's not talking to me anymore, so I'm done.  JM & T live in San Antonio, and JM Jr was born October 26th, so he's 2 1/2 months younger than C.  And SUPER adorable.  We found out a couple weeks ago that JM, T & JM Jr are moving to JAPAN in April-ish.  Yeah, I said Japan.  JM is in the Air Force, and where they tell him to go is where he goes.  I'm sad, but I know that it's a fantastic opportunity for them, and they are going to get to see some pretty amazing stuff, and will hopefully send some pretty amazing pictures. ;)

Well, I suppose this is long winded enough....I need to get some homework done, because I need to get to bed soon.  I'm fighting a stupid sinus infection, and need to get better so that I can love on my nephew this coming week while they are here for Christmas.

I promise I am going to try and be better about keeping this up.....I need to just work it into my daily routine.  We'll see if that happens. :P

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

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