Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Another long night.........

So, this past weekend was pretty eventful.  My brother and sister in law from SA came over for the weekend.  It was nice getting to see them.  Saturday was my brothers' birthday, so we all got together at J & D's house for dinner and cake and ice cream to celebrate their day as well as T & I's.  Our birthdays were in April, so we just celebrated them all at the same time.  Food was good, company was great, and even though Hubby had to work, we had a nice time.  Sunday was Mother's Day, so we went to church in the morning, and then all of us, including my parents, both brothers and their wives and nephews went to lunch.  I started having a bit more cramping toward the end of church and during lunch, so when Hubby & I got home, I drank some water and laid down on my side.  It didn't ease up, so I called the OB, and had to make another trip to the hospital.  My parents met us at the hospital, since they weren't home, so that they could pick up the baby and keep her for us so that she wasn't stuck at the hospital.  They hooked me up to the monitor, made sure that Lil Man was doing okay, and then took him off, but kept the contraction monitor on me.  I ended up getting another shot of terbutaline to stop the contractions.  They didn't do an IV, but sent me home with a script for a medication to help keep contractions at bay.  My OB was actually at the hospital, so he came in and examined me.  Said he thought my cervix was thinning some, so he ordered a sono.  Sono showed that my cervix is okay, but he put me on bedrest.  The most I can get up for is to shower and pee and that's it.  Which makes taking care of a 13 almost 14 month old REALLY difficult.  Hubby is here for the morning and into the early afternoon, and my parents are able to help some, but it's REALLY tough emotionally for me.  I'm NOT handling it very well, and this is really only day 2 of me having to be on bedrest.  Let me just bluntly say, it SUCKS.  I am NOT happy with it at all, but I really don't have a choice.  It's important to get this baby to, at a minimum, 36 weeks.  It's difficult to say the least.  I had a break down today, and cried a couple of different times, because I am just SO scared and unsure of what the future holds for me and my beautiful baby boy.  I really wish that I could see into the future and KNOW what's going to happen.....but I know that's not a possibility.  And I know that my worry only causes my parents, especially my mom, to worry more, and I just can't hold it in, because I'll explode.  I never thought that being on bedrest would be so emotionally taxing........good lord was I ever wrong.

At any rate, I will hopefully be able to update more often, although my posts are probably going to be pretty boring, since all I'm going to be doing is laying around doing nothing. *sigh* The nights are pretty lonely after my parents leave.  They were before bedrest, but they seem to be worse now for some reason.  Anyway, I'm going to close this out for now, and watch the Real Housewives of Orange County episode that I recorded tonight.  I LOVE this show.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.

1 comment:

  1. Oh honey!
    I know it sucks... but it's for the good of the WeeManInYourBelly!!!!

    Try and have friends come help.
    Maybe you can get your little princess in daycare during the day. I know in NY they have state aid for such.
    It would give you the ability to rest up, and it be good for your daughter... INTERPERSONAL SKILLS! See it's a win - win!

    Stay Strong!