For another boring post from me about my seemingly boring life. I am having a heck of a time the last couple days. I'm feeling stressed and defeated in my own head, and it's really getting the best of me. My life has done a complete 180 here lately. I don't talk to my friends anymore. And it's not for lack of wanting to.
Tomorrow is going to bring cleaning, and going through the closet, and working on some homework, and maybe getting a walk in before Weight Watchers, since I know that I completely blew this week, and probably gained a crap load of weight. And the worst part is, I frankly don't care. I am feeling so undeserving and unworthy and just completely NOT myself. I'm not sure what's going on with me the last couple of days.
I need to find my center. I need to rediscover myself. I need to make some friends here locally. I need to feel like I am contributing something worth while. And I don't. I am in this funk, and I can't seem to find my way out of it.
Maybe I should just give up and go to bed. That would probably be the smart thing to do so that I don't manage to screw anything else up today.
Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.
I love you. Know that you can call me anytime, day or night. I know we haven't been talking much, but I still think of you daily and can't wait to you see and Ava (and even Joe :P) soon! We're just going to have to plan something and DOOOO EEEEET!
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