Okay....

So, I completely suck at this blogging thing.  I really need to get better about it, especially since I am on the computer for a while after Lil Lady goes to bed at night, but I just tend to forget about it. :(

A quick update on me.....went to the OB on Thursday, and he cleared me from bed rest, said I could resume ALL normal activities (this made Hubby VERY happy...lol) and we're on the path to evicting Lil Man.  I'm SO ready for him to be OUT.  I'm guessing probably another week to week & a half.  We'll just have to see.  I'm 36 weeks now, so anytime would be fine.  Doctor said that if I were to go into labor at any time, he'd be okay with it, so that's where we're at.

The subject came up about what we wanted to do for birth control, and since Hubby & I have decided that 2 is our limit, the option we feel would work best is for me to have my tubes tied.  I told the OB that I would prefer that he just take it out, and he commented that I was too young.  So then the conversation turned to how awful my periods are and always have been, the endo, and how miserable being a woman basically makes me.  So, he told us to REALLY discuss it, and if we decided that a partial hysterectomy is the direction that we wanted to go, then he would submit the information to the insurance and we would go from there.  In researching things, because this isn't a choice I am going to make lightly, I've come up with some more questions, so when I go back on Thursday of this next week, I'm going to ask those questions, and depending on the answers, hopefully make my decision.  I am really leaning toward having it done, because like I said, my periods are and always have been completely awful.  They were even worse after having Lil Lady, and I frankly do not want to go through the next 20 or so years of my life dealing with it.  I've already dealt with it for more than 1/2 my life, I think that's long enough.

Someone asked me about why I would want to do it, because what if, God forbid, something happen to one or both of my kids...wouldn't I want the chance to have another baby?  And my answer to that is....I don't know.  I'm 33 going on 34, and I always said that I would not have a biological child after 35.  There are more risks after 35, the pregnancy can be harder on the mother, etc.  My pregnancies, while not completely awful, have not been the easiest, especially emotionally, so I don't think I would want to put myself or Hubby through that again.  There are other ways we could have another child, should the need arise, and I would much rather pursue those than put myself through a difficult or risky pregnancy.  Being a mother is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I wouldn't trade my kiddos for anything in the entire world. I would be absolutely devastated if something happened to one or both of them, and the question of whether or not I would want to have another wouldn't factor in for a LONG time, I wouldn't think.  It is a very personal decision, and not one that I'm entering into lightly.  I am doing a lot of research, talking to my most trusted friends, and asking the uber important questions to the doctor that I have come to completely trust, which is something I didn't think I would do after moving away from the doctor that delivered Lil Lady.

A partial hysterectomy would leave my ovaries, so I wouldn't go into early menopause, necessarily.  There is still a possibility that it could happen.....but it could happen even if I had my uterus, so...that's not really a factor for me.  Like I said, there are some things that I want to discuss with my doctor, and once those questions are answered, I will make my decision.

So, anyway, there's my update.  Now I think I'm going to go chew on some Tums, because I have heartburn, yet again, and I am close to being ready to head to bed.  I'm pooped.

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again. :)