Friday, October 21, 2011

Wacky Wednesday.....

Today was just....I don't know.  Kind of hectic, I guess would be the best way to describe it.  Ava's not been feeling super well since her shots yesterday, so she was kind of fussy all day.  She didn't nap hardly at all.  I'm hoping that she sleeps well tonight.  Mom and I have nail appointments in the morning, and I should be in bed, because we have to be ready to leave no later than 8:30, so I'm going to have to get up at 7:30 to get Ava up and fed and ready to go. *sigh*

I had a crappy week as far as the weight loss saga goes, and I'm just completely frustrated with the whole thing. I feel like giving up and saying screw it, but I can't do that.  Ava deserves better than that.  She deserves a mommy who wants to get down on the floor and play with her, and who will be able to chase her around once she starts walking....and right now, I can't do that.  I want to be able to keep up with her, and not have to tell her no, Mommy's too tired. *sigh*  It's just really frustrating, and I can't seem to find the motivation to get up off my big ass and do anything.  I can't even seem to commit to walking at all. :(  It's pathetic.  I need to just make myself start doing SOMETHING.  Even if it's putting in a workout dvd/video while she's napping.  Something's GOT to give.  I'm not getting any younger, and it's not going to get any easier to lose weight.

But, on a much happier note, this is my last week of class for this module.  I'm looking forward to starting the new module on Monday.  I changed majors, and will be starting my Early Childhood Education classes.  I'm taking Psychology and Foundations of Early Childhood Education, and I'm really looking forward to both.  I always did like Psych stuff, and obviously Foundations of ECE is the start of my degree.  I'm excited to get done and get through this.  I want to teach either Kindergarten or First Grade.  We'll see what happens, and what I have to do for the state to get my certification. :)

Well, as you can see....I didn't get this done, and it's FRIDAY. *sigh*   Ava has been SUPER fussy the last couple of days, and she isn't sleeping well either.  She was up several times last night, and just doesn't seem to be sleeping well.  I got her swing back out, and she's sleeping in it now.  Hopefully she'll stay asleep for a little bit.

I suppose I should get this posted before I forget again.  I'm sure I'll write more later.

1 comment:

  1. Here's my story about WeightLoss....

    It sucks
    the end.

    Just kidding,

    I went from a size 4... to a size 16 after I had Emry.
    It took my 3.5 years to start losing anything... and believe me I tried.
    He's 4.5 now... and I'm down to a size 10.
    Still not close to what I was... but, if I can get to a size 8... I will be happy.

    It's about toning, and training.... and discipline... not to mention your metabolism. If your body isn't ready to... it won't lose ANYTHING. Not to mention stress doesn't help you lose weight EITHER!

    Keep yourself motivated... Healthy is the most important thing.... Once you got that.. the weight will go with it.

    I also found out that I'll never really be a size 4 again... after Emry, I got lordosis... sway back... the way my hips turn = never a small waist again!

    So... there you go... I'm with you in those trenches...

    Want to go get a smoothie?

    Love you!
    Things will get better!