Thursday, September 8, 2011

Craptastic Thursday....

So, today was just really kind of craptastic.  I can't even really tell you why.  I started out in a pretty decent mood this afternoon, because I had a phone interview today for a job I applied for, and will hopefully have an in person interview soon.  It's for a small company, small as in they have 25 employees, and the owner's wife (whom I spoke with today) sounds like she would be a doll to work for/with.  I really would like to be able to stay home with Ava, on some level, but I get so tired of being stuck at the house ALL day, and it's driving me insane.  I don't know that I'll get the job, it would be nice, but I don't know.  I started thinking about having to leave Ava with someone, and it literally makes me sick to my stomach.  I KNOW realistically that she'll be fine, but I would feel SO much better if one of my friends lived close and could keep her, or if my mom could stay home with her.  I just don't know.  I really wanted my Avon and Scentsy to take off, and it's not happening, so I am eventually going to have to go back to work.  I could probably stay home while we live with my parents, but like I said, I'm going stir crazy.

Any way, I was pretty pleased with how the interview went, and so I was in a pretty good mood.  And then it all went to shit.  I can't even really vent about it, because it just makes me feel like a whiny brat, and it doesn't do me any good to whine and complain when it doesn't change anything.  I need to just suck it up, and quit asking, and then I won't have to be disappointed.  So, that's what I'm going to do.  I'm going to quit asking, and then I won't have to deal with disappointment.  So there. :P

I got to have a brief convo with my Ames, whom I haven't spoken on the phone to in I can't tell you how long.  She's a Non-Stop Mom (check out her blog ;) ) and things have been hectic here too, so....hopefully we'll get to have a good, long, uninterrupted conversation tomorrow while her 2 youngest are at school and my girl is down for her nap.  I have missed conversations like that with her.

I also got to talk to my Tennessee fiesty today.  Not for long enough on that front either, but there are just some conversations that you can't have around other people. ;)

I have a 3rd conversation that I'm going to try and have tomorrow as well, with my bff from IL.  I haven't actually spoken to her in a while, we've texted some, but that's been it.  Hopefully I'll be able to catch her while her little guy (who's really not so little anymore) is down for his nap.

I also really hope that I get out of this funk that I'm in, because it's driving me INSANE.  Weight Watchers didn't go well this week, so that's part of it, and it's getting to be that time of month too, which is always just a flippen joy (insert eye roll....HERE).

I suppose I really should just shut off the tv and go to bed.  The Saints lost to the freakin Packers....what a wonderful way to end the night. :P  Ah well.....we'll see how the rest of the season goes.  GO BEARS! :P

Stay safe and be blessed my friends, until we meet again.


  1. Can't wait to talk to you!!! Love you miss you!

  2. You are not a whiny ANYTHING.
    You are a first time mother, who is overwhelmed by her surroundings.
    What is the point of using a blog, if you don't vent to it... just let it out.. no one here will judge you... Hell I do it, ALL THE TIME... and none of you judge me!
    Things take time... sometimes it feels like forever, but good things will come... when they are supposed to and NOT a moment sooenr. That's life, and you just go to keep your endurance up, along with your head held high... and just keep pushing forward. You can do it.

    I did.


    It'll be okay.
    (Congratulations on the phone interview)