Trying to hold myself together.................

And it's not working very well.

My parents, who have been my rock, my support, and SO involved with Cookie and Muscles are moving to a town about 4 or so hours away from here.  I am NOT taking it well, at all, and it's been tough.  Cookie really isn't old enough to even understand.  Muscles is definitely not old enough to get it, and I don't know how I'm going to get Cookie through that transition to not having her Nana right around the corner.

The movers are coming to pack Mom & Dad's house tomorrow, and then will load on Thursday and into Friday. *sigh* I am so NOT ready for this.  Just not ready at all.  It seems like the last 6 months since we found out about the move have just flown by, and it's here and I'm just not ready for it to be here already.

They leave on Monday, and it's coming so soon.......I really don't like it.  It's not something that I thought would even happen....and it did, and it sucks.

So, here I sit, up way too late, because I can't get my brain to shut off long enough for me to get tired.  I could just sit here and cry, but what good would that do me?  Not much, except make my eyes puffy and make me look worse than I already do. :P

I really don't know what to do with all the feelings that are running around in my head.  The thought of not having my parents at my disposal really stinks.  4 hours is so incredibly do-able in a weekend, it's not like we'll be so far apart that we'll only get to see them once a year or anything, but it just stinks.  I have gotten so used to just dropping by whenever, and now I can't do that, and I don't like it at all.

We'll have Face Time on our iPhones, which is not even close to the same, but at least the kids will get to see Nana and Ra-ra whenever they want, pretty much.  I just wish that the time wouldn't have crept up so quick.  I wanted more time, and I feel like I wasted time doing other stuff when I could have been spending it with them.

In other news, school isn't going as well as I'd hoped, which is making me crazy.  I have so many worries, and I can't seem to get them under control.  It's annoying more than anything.  I know that in the long run, everything will work out and be ok....it's just a matter of getting to that point.

I suppose that I should close this out and get myself to bed.  I have a lot of things to do tomorrow, and I'm sure that Cookie and Muscles are going to be up at the crack of dawn like they always are.

Light, Love and Parenthood. <3 I will write more as I can...I miss writing more.........