*sigh* That's about all I've got.....

I am SO angry and hurt that I don't even know if I can articulate much of anything that's going to make sense.  There was a HUGE blowout with my brother, who had been drinking, over absolutely nothing.  I am definitely regretting the decision to move in with him, and I honestly don't want to live out the rest of the lease under the same roof as him.

He is purposely keeping my nephews upstairs all day long so that they have no contact with me or my kids, which is disgusting.  He is using them as a pawn in whatever game he has decided to play, and it's absolute crap.  I haven't been able to stop crying since it happened, which was over 2 hours ago.  My 5 year old nephew doesn't understand that he can hurt Muscles by wrestling with him.  I simply picked my son up off the floor when my nephew would not stop and my brother BLEW up.  Accused me of being mean to him (my nephew) all night.  Told my nephew that I didn't love him, and only cared about myself and my kids.  I know that none of it would have happened had my brother not been drinking. He finished off the beer that WE bought and had in the fridge (since we moved in mind you).  I can completely understand why my sister in law left him.  Hubby was about 2 seconds away from punching him in the face, but my mom stood up.  He was bellowing at me at the top of his lungs, in front of my kids.  He scared my children, and that is NOT okay.  At all.  So, I'm done.  We will co-exist in this house only because we have to, then after that, I'm done with him completely.  I will not speak to him, keep his kids, nothing.  I am so completely disgusted with him, I can't even begin to tell you.  This is not the first time that he's yelled at me in this manner since we moved in, but I can assure you that it will be the last.  I'm completely done.  I know that he will not apologize, because his opinion is the only one that matters, and that's fine.  I have nothing more to say to him about anything.

I have never been talked to so meanly in all my life, and my ex husband was a real jerk.

I am just at a complete loss for words about all of this.................He is rude, only thinks of himself, and is a drunk.  That's what makes it worse...the damn drinking.  So, fine...........whatever.

I am going to try and go lay down and get some sleep.  I'm going to have to get up early to get some things done, and I haven't been sleeping well at all.  Not that I really think I'm going to sleep any better tonight.......................................